i only have in the 600s of posts and 5 stars
and yh has 2000s of post with 3 stars,
just pointing that out,
and btw today is day 7...i havnt gotton to 7 days in a long time

Hi HS -

Read most of the thread -

Do you realize that you are probably from the 1/10,000 of high school kids even trying to fight this!!! In Shamayim they look down and say "Look how the world is sinning.. Teenagers in FB, meeting up at parties, watching porn, getting drunk.. The world really is falling apart!! NO WAIT!! There is someone that its worth keeping the world going for. Look at HAshems Soldier on GYE!! Not all is lost!!

Keep it up!! You really are a special person

ninety

HashemsSoldier wrote on 23 Jun 2011 02:41:

guardureyes wrote on 22 Jun 2011 16:14:



HashemsSoldier wrote on 23 Jun 2011 02:41:

;D

o,
i missed that.

and ninety!
thanks! thats such a chizzuk!
today is day 8! and its the summer which is another maalah!

today is day 9!
baruch hashem!
i saw someone in the streets today that triigered my allergic reaction to lust, im coming here to connect to my family here at gye and like a did a while back, make a statement.
i am hopeless by myself. ive made so many attempts at stopping by myself. im powerless to my lust addiction, one of the thousands of things i used to say to myself is that after my bar mitzvah when im chayiv in mitzvos ill definatly stop and here i am, 4 years after my bar mitzvah and im still struggleing, i cant do it by myself.
but i know someone who can help me,......hashem. hasehm has the power to restore my sanity. so im going to ask hashem and try to connect to hashem to help me get through JUST through today! tommorow is a different issue

THATSSS  GIVVVVVVVVVVVAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLDIHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGKKK !!

you have a good attitude HS!
wishing you hatzlocha and brocha and a great shabbos

and shteeble, careful with pushing the alcohol on the under-age drinkers there

HashemsSoldier wrote on 24 Jun 2011 14:23:


Tishah mi yodeia?

Tishah yarchei leidah!

Rebirth!

A new beginning!

A fresh start!

A new life!

A loooong future ahead!

A wonderful Today!

ZemirosShabbos wrote on 24 Jun 2011 16:25:


oops

you're right

HA,
shkoyach reb shteeble on the danishes!
and shkoyach reb yosef Hatzadik!!

HashemsSoldier wrote on 24 Jun 2011 14:23:


YOU'RE SO LUCKY!

I didn't get here until about 23 years after my bar-mitzvah.  Thank G-d, I'm getting better here.  And, you've got a huge head-start.

--Eye.

thank you eye
one of the most scary things about this for me is that if i dont really work on it now i will have it when i get married and im really scared of that. even though im only 17, the time for shidduchim is coming fast, in 5 years ill prob be ready for shidduchim. but its very helpful wehn ppl tell me ho lucky i am for working on it now and not later.
so thanks!
a gut voch

my mom just got a cleaning lady and today was her 1st day and she was very attractive, i had a big big big struggle, i would consdider it a very big slip,
something that helped besides surrender was realizing that i wasnt sane. like the 2 program says that we came to believe that a higher power can restore our SANITY, cus i know how bad a fall would be and yet my INSANE mind still wants me to have a fall.

Pardon the bluntness.

...but I kind of see a pattern here...

When you're about to fall, you usually post about slips and how you want to have a fall.

Then you post about your fall.

Just remember:
You are posting about your slip and difficulties in order to try to regain strength to stand tall.

You are not posting about slips etc. in order to give yourself "permission" to fall.



Anyhow KOT.  KUTGW!

i was posting about my struggle, and how i came close to falling and then i connected to the program and how it helpped me,
like i had a difficult situation, and i even started to slip very badly but once i connected to the program it helped me.
and thats why i posted, to tell you  about how im doing and to connect to the chevra here to get out of isolation.
and just sayng, i didnt have a fall, it was only a slip to be mechazek myself with and know for next time i need to be repared and already cnnected with someone in order to save myself.