I love you lots, bro, and I hear your frustration. And she should be smarter, and it would be nice to have a family that helps protect you from these things.

But.

You were put in a family where spiritual growth is possible. In fact, you were put in the only family where true spiritual growth is possible - for you.

Someone here once pointed out something that's completely true, and very inspiring, if only we could always keep it in mind. Every test we face, every second of the day, when we have an opportunity to get close to hashem, to reveal hashem's glory in this world...that particular test, that particular slice of hashem's glory, has never been revealed before, could never be revealed before, in all of history - and it will never get a chance again.

You were put into this world to grow. And the growth you need to do may be something that requires rising above the situation your family has put you in. Most of us here, on some level or another, have had to do that.

Finally - you admit you're powerless? OK, then what do you have to do to make sure that you're not in a situation that requires you to be powerful?

silent. by giving it to hashem to help me fight.
also we are looking at a lock that whenever the computer goes to the screen saVOR, in order to get back on i need to log on.

checking in. still going.
a little sick

:-* Refuah Sheleima  :-*

ditto to Reb Yosef.

How about not going on that computer? Is that an option, even if an inconvenient one?

its not about going on it and then sliping, going on it in the 1st place is a result of my fall.

you probably wont hear from me tommorow. i will be going to a wedding. ive been looking forward to this wedding, it is a very close friend of mine. during the dancing i will be stomping on the yetzers face....the power of simcha!

here i am.
still clean.
i now have an accountibility partner.
im still looking for yeshivos in israel. im looking at ziv hatorah, but i was told that its not the most serious place. does anyone know about it?

hi HS
great to hear that you are doing good and that you have a partner, that is great news! happy for you
KUTGW

PM me about the yeshivos that yu are looking into and I'll be able to give you a rundown of them.  I recently spent two years in Israel (not in the Mir) and many of my friends went to all the different yeshivas that are out there.  I could probably help from an outsiders point of view.

every time it gets warm here it gets cold gain.
arg!
im doing well. i can see my thought pattern starting to change from the call

had a fall last night.
theres a lot and lot going on now-a-days in my life. trying to keep cool.

shabbas was great.
im really looking for yeshivos. everytime i find a yeshiva i find out that its either not at my level or jsut not for me. its frustrating, but i know this is not good for the addicition. im trying to stay happy. when hashem wants me to find the place he will let me find the place.
iyh i am doing my 5th step call this week. we  are almost half way through the program. its going by so fast.

a gut chodesh everyone.
im happy, im almost done with the second perek of pesachim! after so much hard work. i still have a lot to go. but i can see my skills in learning have improved very much.

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