Hello GYE Community,

I am currently 6 days clean b"h.
I have been struggling with a lust addiction for a while. I say "a while" and not a specific amount of time because I don't remember when the first time I sought out lust for the first time on the internet. All I can really recall is that about four and a half years ago my friend visiting a certain website, lusting certain pictures and that I took note of the website. Some time later I checked out the website for myself and it was downhill from there. At the time I thought I would take a peek at the website just once but obviously that is not what happened. Since then I have been trying to quit on my own and keep on failing.

From more than a year ago I knew the GYE existed but it took me until two months ago to get together the courage to start the 90 day chart. I was doing well for the first month and then at 37 days I had a fall. Since then it has been up and down. After my fall, I thought for a while and came to the conclusion that I had to admit to others and thereby admitting to myself that I really needed help. I have never told anyone about my addiction and this is not easy for me, but in writing this I already feel a certain load being lifted from me.

Praying and Hoping and Yearning that I will succeed in my journey to keduasha I would like to wish all of the GYE community a Good Shabbos and just like Avraham made his journey to the land of Israel in this weeks parsha may we all be zoche to succed in our own personal journeys,

allnewchance

i wish you much hatzlocha on your journey and congratulate you on taking the first step

chazak ve'amatz!
smile, you are on the winning team, be'ezras Hashem

Thats it! You opened the door for hashem to help you. Just keep on working dont give up you will get there.

Welcome to GYE.

Amein on your brocho.

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