Kedusha
I really relate to you regarding your son's chumish play. One of this biggest blessings of recovery for me is enjoying the simple pleasures of watching my children and taking an interest in them. I was once at an SA conference and an older lady got up and burst into tears and said, I plead to everyone here who has young families to get sober and do what it takes to stay sober, and even though she is so grateful that her husband is now in recovery, they cannot undo the damage and the lost time from their children. I know for myself that one of my crazy justifications is that I am only hurting myself, but in truth I am hurting my wife and children. But when I am sober and I pick up my little son from nursery and ask him what he did that interaction is priceless.