Gosh this thread has grown since I was last here!
See, you
do get visitors
First of all, it sounds to me like you are having a great day so far!
Dont expect miracles overnight, even at this time of year!
Growth and personality change takes time and patience.
How about starting a new poll;
how many members are taking, or took anti depressant medications at some point in life?
My guess is that you will be very surprised to see that you are FAR from alone if you go this path.
Treating chemical depression with SSRI is no different than taking Tylenol for high fever.
It wont necessarily
cure the illness, but gives your body a chance to fight it without all the chips stacked against it.
And keep up the jokes!
Its fun to watch this side of you emerge :D