For YKV_S and everyone, I am reposting these two together... the Rebbe Reb Bar. and the Rebbe R' Dov... an amazing duet.
Also, for all the lawyers on GYE, I'm noting that I alread logged an official complaint with General Guard as to why this was not deemed ACE.
Enjoy!
Ok let's talk about addiction I want to speak to the hearts and minds of the vetrans here.
I am entitled I give a lot of attenion to all newbies +++
Ok if you are past 90 days here is some food for thought
#1 its not fun any more
#2 there is no WAR
#3 the "C" bomb complacency
#4 ok this is only for real recovering addicts
Nuu zug shoin
I want to want shmuts but I really don't want it but I really reallt do yet I reaLly don't
(Only my rebberebber=DOV can explain that)
#5 the forum is for addicts?? Huh!! Hey I thought it was a kosher social network monitored by Guard kedusha and 7up
Ok vuss zugst dee bardichever darshan?
I need Chizzuk
Efshar needs chizzuk
Noorah needs chizzuk
Yes yes even (even is the best word in the Yiddish language)
Even dov=rebbereber needs chizzuk
While I await chizzuk
I will get up front in my cab fire up the old engine and
KEEP ON TRUCKIN!!!
Rabbi Bard E. Chev
Chief Rabbi of
Woodford KY
Dear Reb b,
Sorry for being so late but my only internet access is from work and was ill yesterday so missed all the action from whenever. My "boss" went a bit ballistic about email use and stuff like that, too, and lunch today was a wash, so...this is the earliest I could be on here with a (semi) clear head.
Hope you are OK. That's selfish because you make me smile in the most unexpected times. And I've never even met you! I have a l'Chayim (W!) every Shabbos se'udah after the fish and say "for the berdichever" and my kids ask me who that is and I tell them it was a great man I never met. Nu. I smile. They wonder if I should be sent to a nursing home a bit early....
Your 5 points. Ahh. Oyy.
Just a reality check first. My wife just called me to let me know that an old friend of mine just lost his wife from a sudden illness, R"l. All I can say is boruch Dayan ha'emess while my heart drips tears. He must know exactly what He is doing. Gevalt, gevalt. How is a person supposed to go on bichlal? I have no idea, no idea. May Hashem give him superhuman strength, show him love from people that goes way beyond normal, and shine into his heart that is breaking open and somehow give him the ability to stay sane and be His eved. Please help this man remember his children and all the other riches he has in this life and have some kind of a nechoma. I don't know what else to say and keep stopping to cry.. Please. May the folks on GYE, Hashem's sensitive bunch with beautiful hearts, daven for this man.
I'm going to go home be"H as soon as I'm done with GYE and say hi to my wife and try to tell her how I feel about her being my partner here and in the hereafter. Better yet, I'll spend less time that I want to on GYE and go home to her a bit early. Actions speak louder than words...
(I actually wrote the below earlier but couldn't finish it until after unburdening my heart and put the reality check first, b, because something told me it was min haShomayim, maybe to help you somehow, or just to share it and help me somehow...what's the difference?)
As far as schmutz not being fun is concerned, AAs say "being a drunk ruins your drinking". Yeah, it won't be fun any more. I commiserate. As far as recovery not being fun is concerned, recovery gets real boring until I get a fire lit under by (expletive removed by RATM - thanks rage) by #3, then #2 is botul, and suddenly it's fun again! It's amazing what a challenge it is to actually find a real big chunk of wood in shark-infested waters after a shipwreck! And looking for it is just riveting (and exciting)! Well, maybe not "fun", technically....
As far as "I want to want blah, blah...", it's OK (not good, just OK) to want it. We, of all Hashem's people, need to go easy on ourselves when we do. And our response needs to be a little smile and a "well.....there I go again! heh, heh.." and call someone (or post) about it soon. It means nothing. Absolutely nothing. If we struggle or incriminate ourselves "for stooping so low!" then we are dead. It's just a blip, bump, or bleep. Probably more like a bleep....
...and then get back to work.
I love you, b. (but not a scratch of a scratch as much as He does!)
- Dov