AS AN ASIDE:
I WAS CRYING WHEN I WROTE THE LAST TWO CHAPTERS REALLY CRYING
HESHYS MUSSAR SHMOOZE GAVE ME A HIRHUR TESHUVAH .I KNOW I WAS WRITING IT IT'S WEIRD...
Now I understand the power of this story!
All along, and especially recently, there has been a sense of urgency and realism
Ive sensed some unworded, deeper level intertwined between the chapters.
Now i understand why.
Bardichev is writing his story;
different details
different emphasis
same emotion
sme desperation
same inner pain
and guilt
Now Ive figured out the ending.
Heshy will do teshuva
and heal
and find inner simcha.
Because Heshy is the monster Bardichev always feared becoming.
But didnt.