Todays vayimaen video made me cry a couple of tears.

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We stand for so much bigger, and Hashem loves us and is waiting for us to remember him and succeed.

Today's Vayimaen video is a fitting description of the power of GYE.

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The power of the chevra!

Regretfully, I had a fall.
My shmira that I had in place worked, but there are still holes in my internet system.
I think that I probably can patch it up with the filtering company...I think I just dont want to give it up.
Yetzer hara.
I think this is due to certain triggers that influence my bad behavior.
Im just trying to be raw and honest.
And get chizzuk to do the right thing.
I am proud of the past two weeks though.

Anyone have any exp.with having a partner see any questionable sites?
Webchaver?
Can anyone explain the above or an alternative?
Thanks.

Had some fights that I won this week.
I'm still in this and IYH I will win.

Absolute GOLD.
One Day At A Time. (ODAAT)
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There is an alternative with Techloq which can be set up that a third party gets a notice with the site URL every time you unblock a site or that only someone else can unblock a site for you with a password which only they know. For the second option the other person might have to be someone who has access to your computer.

Day 8.
Thank you Hashem.

Not easy to post now.
I had a meaningful Tisha B'av - at least some parts BH.
However, motzai Tisha B'av I got around my filter and had a fall. And another.
It was not easy but as part of my "red circles" plan I contacted my friend/mentor which was a good move.
I put up a more powerful geder than before, with my mentor's approval, and the next was to come here and restart my streak, and admit that I fell.
I dont feel bad about myself as a person, although I did a bit before, and I am ready to start again. 
Sometimes I see these massive streaks that others have on GYE and Im jealous and wish I had that. Not sure what to make of this feeling, just sharing.

I read through your whole thread in order to understand you better. According to your words you have an underlying issue which is causing you to fall but at the moment you would rather not discuss it on the forum. This is fine but I think it is important to discuss it with a mentor like the main mentor hashem help me.

As you can read in my thread "my long journey", I had bipolar disorder as my underlying issue and I addressed my negative moods through tools on GYE and a few techniques from my psychologist as I wrote in my thread and in the links in my thread. It is very important to address the underlying issues and that is probably why you are having a harder time breaking free. Don't bash yourself for falling. Instead talk to a mentor and make a plan uniquely designed to your situation.

Yitzchokm, first of all, I feel bad (for lack of a better word) for your suffering with Bipolar. May you only have simcha in your life and manage it properly without any stress.
As I mentioned in the post before your response, (and I think others), I discuss my situation with a mentor that I trust and is wise.

Last night I had a big struggle with wanting to get around a filter.
Thankfully, the gaurdrails I put in place earlier were effective and held me back.
Thank you Hashem.
The stuff is ultiamtely fake and just leads to bad results in so many areas in olam hazeh.
קו"ח עולם הבא

I think I have more resolve then usual. I'll be honest I am motivated to keeping clean as a zechus for hatzlacha in something. But I find myself if I feel triggered to be busy fantasizing.
Any thoughts?

Day 9.
Regarding the fantasizing and the stuff that leads to it, today I had a win (Maybe it's a big win? Not sure) Basically as I was driving I saw something that I had a big tayvah to look at. But I looked away and didn't alow myself to even get a "glancing look". I did this even though that's not the focus of my clean streak right now but I just want to do it because thats what Hashem wants. I didn't even take that moment to daven. I'm not sure what my motivation was. I think I didn't look just becuase its wrong to look. And it's right to not look. Meaning that's what Hashem wants. I think that means that to a degree I'm feeling my relationship with Hashem. I think that's worth more than anything I would be thinking of davening for. (To take advantage of the segulah of the moment.)
That's awesome, I think.

I'm happy that my streak is now double digits.
I'm also happy that a couple of times I won battles that I normally would have given into and been lax, in general areas of avodas Hashem last week. 
I think that falling has a good feeling to it, but its a similar quick fix like drugs or alchohol - and it leads a person to a bad place, even ruin. (There's always hope but sometimes the consequences can be life altering and everlasting.) 
Better to hit rock bottom