15 Days clean!

Special shoutout to @livingagain for all your encouragement thus far!

The journey continues, onward is upward! (Thanks @BenHashemBH!)

20 Days clean!

Been a little rough lately because of the whole Niddah thing but with the help of Hashem and the backing of you guys I was able to overcome each challenge ODAAT.

Was wondering if there is a place on the Gye website that I can record the events that occur along my journey? Successes,falls,triggers ect.. A personal online journal if you may...

Thanks! Love you all!
#Keepfighting

Just dropping in to wish you all A Gut moed. Hope everyone is having a Chag "Kosher" V'sameach.

Was getting emotional when I was saying זמן חרותנו it had a whole new meaning this year Bh!

While Chol Hamoed is a great opportunity for everyone to spend time with friends & family, along with that comes the struggle of being out with the rest of Klal Yisroel with the women all dressed their finest... (I don't need to elaborate...)

Every challenge brings opportunity and we will fight this till the bitter end! Lets do this! 

Just trying to fire myself up so just bear with me...

Have a great rest of your Yt!

Yesterdays post prompted me with the following question; Can I tell my wife to spice things up a bit in her looks in order to help me face the challenges of being out and about with other women who are doing just the same if not more? Now to be clear this would not involve a breach of Tznius in any way at all, were talking about wearing a nicer Sheitel or of similar sorts... Just not sure how to go about this as I think its ok but obviously biased. Thoughts?

Made it to Day 30! Hooray!

I feel like I'm a changed person now, one who is able to control external feelings and urges, something which I always felt was out of reach.

My relationship with my wife has taken on a whole new level, something which I had never tasted since we got married. She feels it too and is so supportive of what I'm doing here working on myself. Thank you to everyone out there who have made this journey possible for me thus far. Spoke to HHM last night and got me super motivated to go on!

Now starts the next 30 days and with the help of Hashem we will achieve this ODAAT!

Wishing you all A good Shabbos and Yom tov!

Day 35.

Was having some urges recently. I guess that so called "pink cloud" thing is starting to dissipate. However I am determined as ever to finally turn the page and move on from all this.

Hoping that this week goes well with the wife & kids now back to routine, leaving me all by myself...

Overall feeling confident that I Can Do it!
As always,

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All the best!

40 Days clean!

Had a triggering episode yesterday that left me with some urges and fantasies (quite minimal though Bh.) Quickly notified my partner about this development and then sought out ways to distract myself...

Bh it eventually subsided and life went on but it left me with such a liberated feeling that I never had before! The thought that I had the ability to hold back was something I never knew I possessed! It gave me such chiyus and a boost to the rest of my day! Even my wife noticed that I was being extra nice to her and to the kids. It was amazing!

Gye has been such a game changer in my life! I no longer have to walk around living a constant double life, always thinking about "If only they knew..." My marriage is in a much better place, my relationship with my kids and so on. Still a work in progress though...

This is due in part to the incredible family that I am apart of where everyone here is super warm and encouraging. I am so proud to be a part of a family that contains the true warriors of Klal Yisroel!

Thank you all for your continuous support and guidance. There are no words...

All the best and KOMT!

Day 41

Just wanted to share something that inspired me today. Inspiration at times can come from the most unassuming and inconspicuous places, this one being a simple Splenda packet! Yes, that fake sugar stuff that goes in your coffee that health nuts will always try to avoid!

As I was casually depositing it into my coffee and was about to discard it and move on with life, I noticed something written on the back. Just a few words that left me with an inspiration that put my thoughts into perspective.

"Bloom Where You're Planted"

Often we have the feelings of "If only I had things going easier for me" or "If only my challenges were smaller and more surmountable..."

We need to remember that Hashem knows what He is doing and tailor made our life's circumstances for us! Our job is to bloom, thrive and grow through these challenges and situations that we are in. It's only through these specific and unique circumstances that we will grow to reach our full potential! 

Life is so sweet (pun!) and full of opportunity. Let's take advantage of each moment and become the great people we were destined to be!

KOMT!

Made it to Day 45! That's halfway there! Wow!

Now that I have reached this incredible milestone. I feel that now the avoida is to start focusing on real inner change, one that will bring me to my 90 day goal and beyond that Be"h. After all it's not just about the 90 Day program, it's about becoming a better person, a true בן חורין. I look at the program as a springboard that I can use to propel myself to ultimate freedom.

This stage would involve looking deep within myself and determining Who/What I wanna be... in a full out soul searching experience.

Looking forward to embrace this next challenge and with the support of the Oilom we will prevail!

I wanna openly thank @BenHashemBH for his help in navigating me through these troubled waters, There are no words...!

KOT!

Sorry I am late here but by reading through your thread you seem to be an amazing person and a real inspiration to all of us!

Made it to Day 50! This is huge! I cannot believe what I have just accomplished!

Bh things have gotten easier for me as far as my urges are concerned now that we are back to routine and back to the ultra fast-paced speed of life. Less down time equals more opportunities for the Yetzer to get ahold of me. Routine is my best friend!

Being back in Yeshiva has never felt so good with my new sense of freedom and being able to learn with a guilt free feeling makes it ever so meaningful! 

I guess you can say that I'm feeling quite "balanced" these days!

Let's keep this battle going!

55 Days Clean!

Just celebrated our Anniversary together. The best one yet!

The journey continues...

60 Days Clean!

2/3 of the journey is now complete! Now begins the home stretch to 90!

See you there!!!