sytv2002 wrote on 21 Apr 2025 05:13:
Oy… just oy…. It’s crazy how I could have such a big win earlier today, when I got hit with a big urge while in the bathroom- and said “NO!” And stayed clean, and then motzei YT I fall apart and the urge wins. With P. It wasn’t even an urge. Just some robotic feeling that I “MUST” act out. Like I didn’t have a choice. So I poke. And then I find something which naturally gives me an urge; to which I act out on. Happy for my 3 (almost 4) clean day streak… onward we fight.
Oish. That hurt. Here’s a warm hand…
Was there a situation that triggered the feeling you described above? That made you feel you “needed” to find something to act out to?