Welcome !! Reb yid  to the forum where the kedoshim  the most heilige hidden come together to fight the battle of our lives. Your not alone we're all here to support you  and we really care  when I read about your recent fall I feel a pang in my heart(halevai I would feel like that with my own nefilos) but stay in touch post and reach out. Theres no greater chizik then actually talking to someone that's more or less going through the same struggle as you.      Hatslcha my holy brother

Thank you so much for this message, lamaazavtuni. I don’t have the words to describe the benefits of this kind of message. With every message of support, I feel less alone in facing these challenges. When the urges come, I think about the people on this forum who help others, those who manage to overcome their struggles, or those who are going through difficulties but refuse to give up. It gives me more strength to fight back.

Yoshi, you are a hero!  Keep inspiring b'ezras Hashem!

Today, I feel very unmotivated in general. I’m struggling to pray, study, or work, and I know from experience that this kind of situation can quickly lead to a downfall, even if I haven’t really had any strong urges. It’s more about a slow loss of awareness and willpower, along with seeking pleasure.So, it’s important to stay very alert to avoid falling and to stay clean today as well. If anyone who’s been through this has advice on how to handle these kinds of situations, I’m always open to hearing it

Hey my dear brother yoshi ! Good to see your still fighting!!  Are you in touch with anyone on the forum by phone that was a huge huge help for me you have someone to just talk to and let it out usually when your done shmoozing the urge is gone . Try it out it works.!!

Big scare tonight, I almost fell because of the Reddit site (which is now blocked), but with G.d's help and good internet filters, I held strong.Day 5 clean

Today was tricky for me because I was in a bad mood and I searched for inappropriate images twice during the day (images I managed to find). Each time, after a few minutes, I managed to regain awareness by thinking about you on this forum and about God.I can say, not too proudly but a little bit , that I more or less managed to hold on for one more day

yoshi wrote on 28 Jan 2025 19:19:

My Brother,

Not once but twice you pulled yourself back after just a few minutes.

For whatever it's worth, I'm proud of you.

Day 9 clean !!

Keep going!!! . double digits is a big deal.

Recently I found myself getting chizzuk from really experiencing the win, feel good about it feel the strength you have. Its awesome to feel in control. (But still to proceed with caution and not get to confident.)

Day 10 clean !!

Day 11 clean !!

I want to share that  this night, I had a wet dream, so I'm writing here to stay aware of any urges or feelings that might lead to an urge. Every time I have a wet dream, I end up falling the next day. I can't explain the mechanism, but that's what I’ve observed. I'll see by the end of the day how things turn out

My advice....... Don't overthink.  Wet dream =  ?.............. fill in the blank.  If you tell yourself it means nothing then it means nothing.  You're just used to filling in the that blank differently and so your brain gets your body into flight or fight mode and you get that nervous feeling all day, I know but its ok,  chill there is nothing to get anxious about because wet dreams mean nothing at all.  

Have a great day tzadik

Im maskim to you ,,feel like wet dreams start the engine then your stuck driving the car....    but it's probably phycological so ignore and keep fighting remember to reach out if you haven't yet