Ok so yesterday I won bh and right after a terrible fail and so usually there is no way you fail after you fail like crazy(at least for me) but my internet filter was taken off that day so I wanted so watch so badly but somehow I won bh and I was so happy today will be the 2nd clean day bh and I'm felling pretty horny rn so hoping I will be able to hold back

Good luck my friend on the journey and hatzlacha getting through the day!

Updating the thank God last night I didn't fall, still tricky cause I have the unfelteard phone but I'm the toughest times the true worried come out.
Hopefully today a nother win for 3 clean days

Yesterday was my 3rd clean day bh 
Again yesterday I wanted to watch but thank g-d I'm able to shut it down I'm just scared of that really powerful urge that usually come like at the 3or 4th week and like I need to power my self up but then again one day at a time so win just today doesn't matter what happens tomorrow 

Yesterday Friday bh I didn't really gave any urges and I won and over the course of shabbbos today I started just saying in my head and sometimes out loud "I'm free from pornography and masterbation" and "I can and will beat/control any urge that comes my way"

Shabbbos bh are easy and was busy on motzay shabbbos so bh easy W
For win number 5

Amazing! Keep it up

1. Sunday was my 6th day clean thank g-d I had a busy day at the army and came home late and then I worked out and watched football so didn't give myself free time really but at the same time bh I just didn't have urges.
2. I would be happy to know if it's something I did yesterday that because of that I didn't have urges or it's just something that comes and goes and not really up to me or is it a bit of both?

Keeping busy, feeling productive, and exercise release endorphines in the brain. This greatly minimizes the imagined need to act out.  In addition, you are correct. Urges come and go.

Yesterday was day 7 clean(week 1 ✅)
SO I did have urges yesterday it came mainly because of thinking of one of the girls I work with in the army  obviously knowing I would never do anything with her so I was thinking about watching something of someone who might look like her but then I told myself to remember that she isn't a sack of flesh and I imagined her with her mother and how she also has bad days and just really making sure ik she is a human just like my sister,and besides that I was able to keep busy by working out talking to friends and do some work but not to much so I don't get overwhelmed and then just watch to "relax"
And also did mindfulness Wich is always a game changer.
On top of all this I had a dream where I had a urge and I felt like I have to but absolutely have to act out like there isn't another choice,once I woke up I was relieved it was a dream but also scared cause il a urge like that is inevitable so if anyone has tips to get ready for it all be more then happy to hear 

It's 1745 and felling a strong urge ik exactly how it happenen
im watching videos know about what addiction does to you and I KNOW I will absolutely destroy the YETZER today for a nother W

Bh day 8 completed successfully,
What I learned yesterday after talking to a fellow Gye member is that I mentally allow myself to give up when it gets to like 20-30 days cause I'm like ok the urge is always strong now so I can fail so I have to noticed about what I tell myself that no matter how strong it is I don't have the right to fail juts like I won't let my self fall the next day after a fall

Great job my friend!
Urges pass usually after 15-20min.
I tell myself its like lying on the chair by the dentist and he's busy drilling in your teeth and it hits raw nerves, sometimes extremely painful, but i can cope with it because I know it's over within 15mins....

Much Hatzlacha!
You're amazing!!

Rocky, you are an inspiration. When it gets tough, reach out to one of the guys here (as you have already done). It is a game changer.

Thank you guys very much for the support save kind words