Like Yosseleh the tzadik'l said - you are not alone, sweet human being!!

Hey HB, u have very clear both routes I see & u choose the better one, that's a wise decision but hard, but the other one is way to bad, so we have no other choice, u r doing fine just keep up ur DC call ur posts are much better nowadays, I remember u from elementary in group # 7, b"h we both trucked outta there

i think living in recovery has its rough patches but mostly its very gratifying  and fulfilling .

dov wrote on 02 Nov 2010 02:26:


What is true and what I think don't neccesarily match, unless I ask our loving Father in Heaven to get me into reality. He only seems to help when i work together with loving brothers trying to stay sane with me. Thanks for being there Dovele.

jewinpain wrote on 02 Nov 2010 11:39:


I'm just only Starting....every day...I'm still so scared to face my life this morning so many fears...hashem I know you will help me get through this day.

Frumfiend The star wrote on 02 Nov 2010 11:42:


The alternative is one long farshtukene rough patch....It invovles a complete arrogance and thinking just about me.

I am and was a nacissist. I was a sweet, charismatic, nice and smiley but really just an a**hole looking out for myself and trying to control everything and everyone around me with my charm etc. Now I have a few good patches here and there where I am starting to act like a normal Human Being. Progress not perfection for today.

Yosef Hatzadik wrote on 02 Nov 2010 01:12:


The scary parts in my head are selfish and only want to stay by me they couldn't care less about you. Same for the one's in your head....However the beautiful and holy parts in my head sure do care about you so it's two against one when we get together with someone else.

OK, so when & where can they meet?

kayal taarog al afikei mayim kain nafshi saarog aleicha elokim...

I need to remember, One day at a time. YEsterday I did not live in recovery has no bearing on my living today in serenity and closeness to hashem.

Amen, v'amen! Every scrap of emess, is still precious and indispensable.

Heeloo

Frumfiend The star wrote on 16 Nov 2010 00:01:


Well hello there...How are you doing?

Since November 24 we didn't get any posts from the Humanbeing. Is there a good reason why? Should we worry about him? Did he zoom ahead & leave us behind in a cloud of dust?

I was depressed and acting out every few day. I've gotten a proper sponsor and I'm working the Steps again. I'm in middle of Step 2 - Been sober and healthy since Friday (10 Teves) with Hashem's blessing and care. Thanks for asking Tzadik.

I believe that Hasehm wil help me by taking away my desire to lust when I ask him and in general to take away my compulsion to want to escape from reality every time I face something emotionally painful. He will do this every time I ask him to.

Step # 2