You're very welcome...

I urge you to get on those calls. There are 2 times 8:30 AM EST and at 12 EST...If you can't make it try a Live Meeting in your area - Your worth it.

Willingness - To truly believe that Hashem cares about me and is ready for me to let him in and take care of all my needs.

Here's a quote from 12 & 12 you might like:

"PRACTICING Step Three is like the opening of a door
which to all appearances is still closed and locked. All we
need is a key, and the decision to swing the door open.
There is only one key, and it is called willingness. Once unlocked
by willingness, the door opens almost of itself, and
looking through it, we shall see a pathway beside which is
an inscription. It reads: “This is the way to a faith that
works.” In the first two Steps we were engaged in reflection.
We saw that we were powerless over alcohol, but we
also perceived that faith of some kind, if only in A.A. itself,
is possible to anyone. These conclusions did not require action;
they required only acceptance."

Thanks Yiddletoo for sharing that...I love your GYE name.

As children, our Higher Power is for most of us, Mamma and Totte. Growing up in the shadows of the Holocaust it's no wonder that many of our parents didn't have the ability to connect with us on any real deep levels of empathy or understanding. For most people (since most people are not addicts) they get over it and grow up with a healthy mature understanding of the true Higher Power, Hashem, who cherishes them and cares about their struggles, pain and rejoices in their happinness...

As an addict my problem is that it's hard for me to ensure that my emotions mature along with my brain. Namely, that I must work on a daily basis (ie. davvening 3 times a day) to realize that my Father in Heaven truly cares about me and treasures me for being a precious Yid. That is even before I take into account the many beautiful Mitzvos that I'm so privileged to be able to do every day.

I came to believe a Power greater tham myself can restore me to sanity. Hashem is truly excited about his child seeking him and he will surely help me through all of my troubles and fears.

I must ask myself, am I willing to go to ANY lengths to work these steps and live in recovery?

:)A Gutten Shabbos!!!

humanbeing wrote on 12 Aug 2010 20:21:


Thats a really good question... And the program asks that when asnwering this question, we be completely honest with ourselves. That is a very difficult thing to do. How do I be honest wiht myself if it means being critical of me? Oh ya, this isnt about me anymore it means more of God. And a good place to start is being honest with myself. Sometimes I am honest and still cannot bring myself to do something. Not an easy task. But if you are honest with yourself, my gosh, life is just so much better.

Yiddle thanks for the honest honesty assessment.

The Program ask us to surrender our Lust and our lives (fears, resentments, anger, depressions etc.) over to G-d. We don't ask that hashem take it away rather we surrender it to him. There is a big difference. The difference of a little boy and a man. It's time for me to mature and be the man/humanbeing hashem needs/wants me to be.

Wife is leaving for the weekend - I'm with the kids. I must really be in connetion iwth hashem with the help of my Chaverim. So I remain outside of my egotistical head and don't succumb to the Lust. Your will not Mine be done.

A Gutten Erev Shabbos...

Heard at an SA meeting...After you get rid of the sex/lust/alcohol you're still left with the I.S.M. ...
I Sponsor Myself

Haslech Al Hashem Yehavcha - Vhu Yechalkelecha!

Throw Unto Hashem your burdens...Lust...RESENTMENTS...THINGS AND PEOPLE YOU'RE AFRAID OF...and HE will sustain you!!! Tehilim Nun Aleph.

I cannot live life on my own - I surrender my fears and character defects to you...YOU will work with me to overcome my challenges. There is no other way. I can't do this (life) on my own, with my own will power. Others perhaps can but I'm that weird, crazy, unexplainable person..I'm an addict. I need to live with Hashem or I just turn into a EGO Monster to my wife kids etc., I become frozen in fear  like a 10 year old running away from the Doggie or the dark room. Hashem Hashem...I love the sound of the Shofar it truly says it the best. Just a primal scream to wake up and surrender that ego to Hashem and let yourself experience the true reality that Ani Lo Nivraisi Ela Lishamesh es Koni.

Just today just for today...I surrender my fears to Hashem and he will help me get through this next hour and the next as well.

humanbeing wrote on 24 Aug 2010 18:42:


That is two at a time  >


For the present moment, wouldn't this be a better outlook ?
humanbeing wrote on 24 Aug 2010 18:42:

Thanks Tzaddik - trying for 2 hours at a time got me in a little trouble - - B"H with Hashem's help, men hut aroisgekruchin

A story that happened to me:
I recently began attending SA meetings in my area. After the 2nd meeting I asked and was assigned a temporary sponsor by the name of Eric. A gentelman in his late fifties with 5 months of sobriety. I check in with him every day at his request and we are starting to work the Steps together beginning with Step 1.

This past Tuesday being that I got an award for 30 sober and i was sharing how I got this point. Of course, I mentioned the website and the DC Daily Phone meeting, not by name. After the meeting, (BTW these meetings have gotten me to finally start working the steps seriously) a fellow Brandt comes over to me and asks me if the website was GYE and the phone meeting were given by David. This Brandt (not-Jewish) used to live in Dallas and guess who was his sponsor - non other than the great captain DuvidChaim. It gets better, Brandt is my sponsor's, Eric, sponsor. SO my Sponsor is DC and now his spiritual grandson Eric. Thank you Hashem for sending me such an open sign of how much Nachas you are getting from me being on this path back to you. Thanks for listening.

Doesnt God run the world better than I ever would?? So why do I think that I can control what goes on?? Were self-will run wild!!!

Amazing story. Put that in your back pocket!

-Yiddle