JARES90 wrote on 22 Jul 2024 04:52:
My main struggle is the search to find inappropriate content online. Like the rush of beating a filter. But as of recently once I beat the filter, I just didn’t even want to look. It was like all the excitement was getting to the point where I can look but know that I can and I did, it just felt off. Now I’ve gotten to a point where I have just blocked or cut off all the known shortcuts and am just trying not go on that hunt that Ik will end up leaving me completely unsatisfied.these past 2 weeks have been pretty good, every once and a while I’ll c something soft core but do me it doesn’t feel like a setback I can see I’m getting progressively better even with these minor setbacks and overall I feel pretty good. I’m wary of the long run bec these slips can just come out of no where but I also know that you have to have a more collective approach to this sugya and view it through the wider lens than just streaks
I really identify with the struggle of looking to beat a filter... Do you have a daily accountability partner? For me, steady accountability and connection
actually minimize the draw and struggle.
Just figured I'll share my experience here as it may help you or someone else....
Here's wishing you continued success in containing, taming, and indeed vanquishing this cursed creature, forever!
With brotherly love,
Muttel