Urges are inevitable. After a longer period of time it may be easier but there will always be a time when we have urges. You may have been in what is called a pink cloud before you had the urge that led to a fall. Our urges completely disappear temporarily during a pink cloud, and it happens early on in recovery.

You tasted what it feels like to overcome urges. The main thing after a fall is to brush yourself off and continue trucking. You may also be able to recognize a pattern of situations, thoughts and emotions that lead to falls. Once you realize a pattern you can put safeguards in place so you don't fall again.

My therapist suggested that whenever I have an urge or want to act out I should read one chapter of battle of the generation first. 
genna try that out for the future. Atleast I'll finish the book fast! 

zcleang wrote on 29 Feb 2024 21:23:

Tharpist suggested....hmmm... does your tharpist happen to be  "captin" or "yitzchokm" 

Depending on the causes for the urges, tools in the toolbox, audio recordings you can redeem with coins and download, and reaching out to friends or mentors on GYE when you have an urge are probably better options. Regularly reading the book TBOTG and the F2F program will prepare you ahead of time for urges that come your way. The emotions during an urge are intense and it is often difficult to think logically and overcome them by reading the book at that point but if you find TBOTG useful during an urge then go ahead and use it. I can see it working for some people.

I would like to thank everyone for they're words of encouragement and they're listening ear (more like listening eyes)!
 Have an incredible shabbos! Can't wait to get back to another week of fighting for what's right!