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Re: Nothing to lose - Update 79 09 May 2024 19:18 #412958

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	I am Going to reflect on what you said YKW, Thanks.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 80 12 May 2024 13:42 #413094

notezy
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Last night i had fall and went on youtube. But thats not so important.
Alright so talked with HHM here is my new plan: covenet eyes I am going to use to block YouTube on my laptop and that new "lock me out" app I have been using on my phone seems to be working so no more spotify no more YouTube. I think ill get 24six to be a middle ground. And then on top of that I am going to start the 30 day challenge with HHM.
also Yeshivah started today so a more full schedule some things are still up in the air but overall things are getting on track.
Had a great start to the zman.
Shachris, gym, first sader... kept productively busy today no YouTube. Still got to get my rabbi to lock the covenant eyes thing ill do that when I see him tommrow.

Day 1.

"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend.

"Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Last Edit: 12 May 2024 13:43 by notezy.

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 81 13 May 2024 04:24 #413169

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Didnt go on youtube yesterday stayed clean. Starting day 2.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 81.5 13 May 2024 08:11 #413170

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	I got the youtube block set from Covenent eyes password locked by my rabbi for my laptop.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 82 14 May 2024 05:36 #413272

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Starting day 3 yesterday was a bit hard lot of stress but I just ended up going to bed early. no urges so it worked.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 82 14 May 2024 19:37 #413342

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Ending day 3. Pretty good day overall didnt think much about wanting to go on youtube was to busy in a good way.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 83 15 May 2024 05:52 #413383

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Day 4
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson Last Edit: 15 May 2024 12:10 by notezy.

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 83 15 May 2024 12:10 #413392

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	I got 24six today. Slowly building up my plan. I am debating if I should set it up with usage or time of day limits right off the bat or wait and see how much I use it. I am open to opinions.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson Last Edit: 15 May 2024 12:16 by notezy.

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 83 15 May 2024 13:23 #413395

DeletedUser1211 OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 308 Karma: 25	notezy wrote on 15 May 2024 12:10: I got 24six today. Slowly building up my plan. I am debating if I should set it up with usage or time of day limits right off the bat or wait and see how much I use it. I am open to opinions. It's probably a good idea for you to not be on your phone bchlal at like 2 a.m. So I'd suggest loose time of day limits.
	We are not the same people we once were. We are not so locked into our urges that we have no choice. We can choose to give in or choose to win this battle today. We do not want to give in, the pleasure of giving in is false. With Hashem on our side our victory is inevitable; the only way we can lose is by giving up on playing the game.

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 83 15 May 2024 14:58 #413401

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Ya as a bare minimum I set the limit as 11:30 PM - 6:00 AM Down time
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 83.5 15 May 2024 18:00 #413415

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Getting out of that job I complained about a while back. Today I gave them 14 days notice. the new work environment I am going to should be better for the battle anyways. thought I would share some good news.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 84 16 May 2024 05:03 #413447

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	Day 5.
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 84.5 16 May 2024 10:24 #413452

notezy
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Mid day I feel it's getting harder.
Why does this bother me so much every time. I know it's coming and it's what I signed up for but it makes me so uneasy.
Once i make all these sacrifices i expect to have an easier time or what was it all for then i get strong urge a few days in and I feel what was all that effort in quiting youtube and spotify for if the urges still come this strong unprompted. We'll if I am being honest their was a trigger earlier today but I moved on past it.
Why dont i ever get a chance to rest in this fight.

"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend.

"Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 84.5 16 May 2024 11:38 #413453

frank.lee Current streak: 398 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 687 Karma: 21	Sorry to hear. How long have you been fighting this with GYE on your side?

Re: Nothing to lose - Update 84.5 16 May 2024 11:51 #413454

notezy OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 495 Karma: 12	I thinks it's still under a year but it might be a little bit over a year by now I am not sure
	"Excuses are the tools of incompetence" -My Friends Friend. "Change will lead to insight far more often than insight will lead to change" -Milton H. Erickson