proudyungerman wrote on 01 Apr 2024 03:18:

Not the first one I got in touch with.
We really didn't talk about much. I just kept putting off calling him when he gave me his number on the chat.
I decided to finally call him just to get to know him for future reference. 
Although somthing I could give you as a takeaway from what he said was. It helps to have community.

Day 6

Day 6
I already know today  is hectic so the risk for me today will be a battle when I am exhausted from the day.

Half way through the day I made it sound worse then it has been so for. trying to brace myself for an impact that might not come.

Keep going! 
you can muster up the strength and desire to be clean for today. That’s all you need to do, and you can do it!! 

One day at a time. 
Hang tight, 
Chaim 

Thanks I wanted to note a jump in awarness of the battle on the street I have been working on guarding my eyes on the street and thought but I felt an uptick in lingering thoughts this afternoon I guess it comes with the territory but it makes me jittery because I don't want them. And I am worried I am going to lose focus and get lost.

End of day 6
talked with HHM this afternoon just a check in. Moving forward trying to keep in mind the advice I gave to others as it starts to get more exciting trying to have patience and not let the nerves make me uncomfortable. 
Anyways overall good day. 

Day 7 good morning 

Today while reading TBOTG I came across my favorite word Sublimation although it was saying not to do it in this case anyways I thought I would try out putting my thoughts on the chapters here instead of my journal.Thoughts on chapter 22:Main take away was don't let our desire for success get subverted and turned into a desire for honor.We need to maintain a feeling of success or we start to subconsciously looking for ways to make ourselves feel better (e.g. chasing honor).​when he refers to honor he is talking about looking good in others eyes somthing superficial and not real.
everyone has a desire to be great and we must harness it in the right way and for the good.

The wait is frustrating.

back at work having issues with were I can look and now being more "alert" as the streak gets longer the images last longer in my head even if I don't want them to is their anything I can do but be patient?

As time goes on I feel like I am wasting away and don't feel like I am achieving anything despite knowing that's not true. 

As time goes on I feel like I am wasting away and don't feel like I am achieving anything despite knowing that's not true. Maybe set a little reward up for when you hit ten days? Just as a token reminder to yourself that you've done something worth rewarding?

chooseurname wrote on 02 Apr 2024 17:02:

Not a bad idea, any suggestions?
I am bad at this stuff.

notezy wrote on 02 Apr 2024 18:11:

sky diving is great.
ill come with you.

Its passed 12PM which means 1 week down day 8
looking to improve like I said I want to make this one count.