"Humf !" *walking into the house after a very long day*
"I had such a bad day today!"
I couldn't eat melava malka untill 230am, and then i didn't get to bed till 3:10. I woke-up at 8:30, and wasn't able to start davening untill 5 minutes after sof zman tfilah (and stipid me forgot to sneak a krias shma bizmano)! I didn't have a free moment till 3pm and then Ive been runnign around untill now at 6:30pm !!!!!"
And to top-it-off, I have an empty room awaiting me, with acces to a big-screen TV, pritzus roaming the halls, and I can do whatever in want without anyone caring!!! It's soo hard. So when I finnaly DID free-up today (or so I thought), I was hit head-on with the biggest wave of tayvah in weeks (including my falls). I just sat down on the neerest chair, gritted my teeth, and begged H' to take it away... :'( . And thank you H' for answering in 7 seconds. Then I got an sos text, and haven't sat down untill now (B"H I squished-in mincha)"
Thank you SB. I don't know if you ever got my text, but just sitting there and writing it, gave me the support I needed to get through for those 5 minutes. "
"Oh and to top it off, now I got a stomach problem!!! SO I have to keep runnign to the B-room, and keep running into the same nissayon!!! Arhhh!!!! >
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I hate the YH >
Every time I focus on my desire to have a healthy marriadge, and to be "allowed" to go-out, It sobers me up, and re-transforms me into the BenTorah I am.