BT2001 wrote on 18 May 2023 19:38:
After just over 100 days, and then another 90 days, since Passover I've kept on falling again and again. I don't really know what I am doing wrong, except that I really don't have a passion for this goal anymore. Before I fell being so far was an ego thing I think and now I don't know what should necessarily be driving me.
Welcome. Before any success you must identify why you want to stop, or if you want to stop. We all know that just the fact that it's wrong ain't gonna cut it. You need to gain a clarity and see if that's really what you want. Just posting won't help you in any way. (Aside from placating some guilt.)
Additionally, it makes no difference how far down the "aveirah" path you are - as you call it, or if you are FFB or not, it's the same programs, understanding and discipline that will need to be put into play. Yes, it may be harder, but still the same.
So, please take a good look in the mirror and decide where you really want to be - and if that's here - we look forward to hearing from you!
Warning: Spoiler!
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