I personally have not experienced it, but my Rebbi warned me that often when people are worrying about working on this one thing, it distracts from focusing on other challenges. And his examples were that it becomes harder to focus on learning and on davening. So he was saying such a thing could be expected.
He told me not to focus on the details of the struggle, but rather on the push to get closer to Hashem. This was all the separate nisyonos are part of the same struggle and easier to deal with everything at the same time.
Well it gives me some comfort knowing that this can be expected… i just hope that ill be able to regain my kavana sooner rather than later.
On a side note, today was a great day for me. Did very well in the streets when there were non-tzniyus women. I took off my glasses and focused on the ground. It’s getting easier and easier to do it and not to pay attention to every little thing that happens around me. In the book
v’haer eineinu they suggest to practice not looking up at every thing you notice in your peripheral vision in situations besides for the street, to train yourself to get used to not looking up when you are in compromised situations. One suggestion that they have is that while you are in the beis medrash learning and you notice that someone walked in, you should try not to look and see who it is. If you have a set time during Seder (could even be for 10 min) to not look up, this will help you train yourself for the streets. I find this to be a very helpful tactic because even if you fail and do look up while in the beis medrash, you still don’t see anything bad. Lmk if this helps anyone.
Anyway on to day 94, hope to be reaching triple digits next week!
