JacobsLadder wrote on 09 Jul 2021 15:43:
I was doing so well.
My mind was clear. My eyes were shielded.
I was busy being better.
Then something triggered me , something I saw while driving and after a few days of battling I fell.
Does it ever get easier to deal with lust and desire ?
I would love for the day to come when I never have to think or worry about falling again.
I feel like I failed all those around me.
Jack
YES.
Why?
This is an extremely debated point. What exactly changes after a while? Some say the desire lessens, while others tend to think that the person becomes more adept at prevention and urge response. Whichever it may be, the desire never disappears forever, it's always there.
Yet it can lay dormant for a long time if one learns how to respond properly. So don't imagine that you will always feel the way you feel now. Although there will be periods of time when your desires burn with a hellish fire, there will be long periods of time when they will be under control and mellow. The longer you fight and learn, the longer those periods of peace will become.
Just keep in mind. If one is "clean" but continuously teases himself with images etc. that he deems "ok" or "not a fall" or "that's not why I'm looking here..." (we all know what I mean) then the fight will remain almost unattainable. If we completely and wholeheartedly throw ourselves into purity, with vigorous mind and eye guarding, only then can we vanquish the animal inside.
Hang in there! Life is to valuable to waste on invaluable things.
