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Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 08 Jul 2021 04:52 #370607

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Tired of falling wrote on 08 Jul 2021 04:45:
Day 3!

Keep it up!!
(Sorry I hit the minus karma button by mistake instead of plus; can only change a karma after 6 hours so I'll take care of it then )
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Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 08 Jul 2021 19:55 #370627

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Day 4!!

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 11 Jul 2021 05:01 #370678

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Day 6

Shavua Tov

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 11 Jul 2021 23:10 #370708

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Day 7
Spent my first time on the ‘flight to freedom program’.

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 12 Jul 2021 13:48 #370737

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How was it? What is it like?
In the place where ba’alei teshuva stand, even pure tzaddikim who never sinned cannot stand. (Rabbi Avohu, Brachos 34b)

Great free resources:
My favorite book for breaking free: The Battle of the Generation 
https://guardyoureyes.com/ebooks/item/the-battle-of-the-generation. Change your attitude and change your life!

Rabbi Shafier's incredible lectures on breaking free: The Fight. Download here: 
https://theshmuz.com/series/the-fight/

If you're only ready to try something small, check out an easier way to do self-talk here:
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/4-On-the-Way-to-90-Days/378128-Captain—Shtarkemotionals-Secret90Day-Challenge

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 12 Jul 2021 15:59 #370742

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I’m disappointed to let you guys know that I’ve had a fall (after 7 days) last night at midnight. I’m not as depressed as last time I fell though. This time was longer than last time by 3 days I think. Hopefully next time I’ll go longer. 
What led to the fall: 
I really don’t know I learned, read through the forum, and before sleeping I listened to a podcast  and got an urge after it, I was too tired to post on the forum. 

what I should do next time: ask for help no matter how tired I am. And never go to bed if I’m not gonna sleep right away.

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 12 Jul 2021 16:03 #370744

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Captain wrote on 12 Jul 2021 13:48:
How was it? What is it like?

It looks very good. You basically have a coach and you  read articles on proven scientific ways on how to break free and you’ll get assignments and homeworks over them. 

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 18 Aug 2021 20:07 #371721

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Hey guys I'm back!
sorry I've been very busy (maybe a little lack of enthusiasm too) since the last time.

Day 8 BH (after a long time of struggling to finish just one week).

In the small time I had each day I was on 'flight to freedom' and reading books on the subject. 

kol tuv
Last Edit: 18 Aug 2021 20:07 by Tired of falling.

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 22 Aug 2021 18:19 #371803

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Hi chevra, hope everyone is doing fine.
Day 2

I had a fall on Friday noon, because I was on a certain app which offers many student discounts. and there happened to be a very immodest ad. 

I will try to reduce my free time and at least spend it around people.
Last Edit: 22 Aug 2021 18:53 by kedusha. Reason: Mention of specific app

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Day 4

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 09 Feb 2023 00:29 #391789

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Hi! What’s up? What you up to bro??
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Feel free to pm me!

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 21 Feb 2023 02:44 #392394

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Hey, man thanks for checking on me. Currently, I'm 4 days clean. Still struggling to keep clean for more than a week. I've just set up an anyonymos google voice number, so I can call someone when having a nisayon. I feel like that's the only hope for me, since it's the one thing I was nervous to do, but I have to do it now. Please let me know if you are interested. 

I'm trying to find time everyday to be on the fight to freedom program. I will also try to continue posting here in forum daily bli neder. 

No nisyonot today. 

What about you Geshmak?

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 21 Feb 2023 03:06 #392396

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Tired of falling wrote on 21 Feb 2023 02:44:
Hey, man thanks for checking on me. Currently, I'm 4 days clean. Still struggling to keep clean for more than a week. I've just set up an anyonymos google voice number, so I can call someone when having a nisayon. I feel like that's the only hope for me, since it's the one thing I was nervous to do, but I have to do it now. Please let me know if you are interested. 

I'm trying to find time everyday to be on the fight to freedom program. I will also try to continue posting here in forum daily bli neder. 

No nisyonot today. 

What about you Geshmak?

Sure I’m interested!! But I would recommend someone way better then me he’s username is Hashem help me. You can contact him through emailing him at michelgelner@gmail.com
He is really good at this… but he’s very busy and can’t pick up every time you have a nisyen. So maybe ask him what he thinks about calling me in time of nisyen and if he gives the go a head… then I’m all in!
Let me know, take care!
Oh! And how did I forget to say…. 4 days clean is amazing! Almost a week… keep us posted when you get your week. And doing the f2f program is a great idea too. Good luck!
Guys the only way were really gonna get help is with H’s help so we gotta beg him for help and he sure will help us cause he wants us helped!!
CRY TO HIM!!
https://guardyoureyes.com/forum/2-What-Works-for-Me/387630-Powerful!#387630

Feel free to pm me!

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 21 Feb 2023 07:17 #392410

It takes tremendous strength to keep getting up an trying again and again like you. Your story is so full of the fight and of holding yourself responsible. Chazal tell us that when a person comes to purify himself, shamayim helps him. Hang on tight, you will make it, you are a true ba litaher

Re: My seemingly endless and dark journey 22 Feb 2023 04:50 #392469

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Day 5 clean. No nisyonos since yesterday BH. 
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