Starting the 90-day challenge today. I've been struggling for about 8 years now. Up until about January 2020 I managed to lead a completely normal life despite it. I always got done what I needed to get done with, I had a great group of friends, I felt like I was still growing as a person. Of course I had guilt, but I didn't really let it get in the way of my pursuit of meaning. Because of this, I never really took the time to address it and I basically thought that I could get away with doing it for the rest of my life. But 2019/2020 was my last year of university, so after the winter break of that year, I had to complete a lengthy individual project. I was terrified of it, so instead of facing up to it, I indulged and indulged and indulged, not just in porn/masturbation but also in food, sleep, etc. By the time the year was over I managed to scrape getting the project done but I was pretty low on confidence and felt pretty lonely. Unfortunately, since then I have started another course and until Februray 2021 I pretty much fell back into those habits. I felt pretty hopeless. I told my Dad about my struggles and he put filters on the internent and i got a filter on my laptop (I already had one on my phone). I've made a bit of progress in my struggles over the past couple months but more than that it's been really mentally challenging and at the moment I'm feeling quite low and lonely. I hope with this 90 day challenege I can get rid of not only my temptation struggles but also the negative emotions that I've been having. I know you can't get rid of them completely and that they are a necessary part of life but at the moment I'm a bit overwhelmed by them and I'm learning how to deal with them. Anyway, that's enough venting, now onto the work... Thanks for hearing me out.