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Journey to feeling whole again 28 Apr 2021 15:40 #367554

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Starting the 90-day challenge today. I've been struggling for about 8 years now. Up until about January 2020 I managed to lead a completely normal life despite it. I always got done what I needed to get done with, I had a great group of friends, I felt like I was still growing as a person. Of course I had guilt, but I didn't really let it get in the way of my pursuit of meaning. Because of this, I never really took the time to address it and I basically thought that I could get away with doing it for the rest of my life. But 2019/2020 was my last year of university, so after the winter break of that year, I had to complete a lengthy individual project. I was terrified of it, so instead of facing up to it, I indulged and indulged and indulged, not just in porn/masturbation but also in food, sleep, etc. By the time the year was over I managed to scrape getting the project done but I was pretty low on confidence and felt pretty lonely. Unfortunately, since then I have started another course and until Februray 2021 I pretty much fell back into those habits. I felt pretty hopeless. I told my Dad about my struggles and he put filters on the internent and i got a filter on my laptop (I already had one on my phone). I've made a bit of progress in my struggles over the past couple months but more than that it's been really mentally challenging and at the moment I'm feeling quite low and lonely. I hope with this 90 day challenege I can get rid of not only my temptation struggles but also the negative emotions that I've been having. I know you can't get rid of them completely and that they are a necessary part of life but at the moment I'm a bit overwhelmed by them and I'm learning how to deal with them. Anyway, that's enough venting, now onto the work... Thanks for hearing me out.

Re: Journey to feeling whole again 28 Apr 2021 16:25 #367556

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Hey Arch57, welcome!
Very impressive that you told your dad about your struggles, I didn't have to courage to do that.
Keep us updated and stay connected, it does wonders.
Good luck on your new journey! Just remember it's 'one day at a time'.

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Re: Journey to feeling whole again 29 Apr 2021 01:42 #367616

Welcome! I believe statistically a lot of the people who break free and complete the 90 days post a lot on the forum (I personally find it very helpful) so definitely try to do that!

Besides for that I'll steal Captain's line and say that other great resources are "The Fight" (excellent podcast by Rabbi Shafier from The Shmuz which talks about this) and "The Battle of the Generation" (free eBook or paid book from amazon which talks about this too)
Think about how good you'll feel if you say no to desire and compare that to how bad you'll feel if you say yes.

Desire is unique in the way that it is never fulfilled -  if you give in the desire comes back even more powerful in just a few days. Telling yourself that its ok because this is really the last time doesn't work because you are just adding new images to your head that will cause future falls.

The Joy of triumph over the yetzer hara is worth the effort it takes to win. It IS worth it! Keep fighting!


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