Hey, KG.
i've just seen your thread , and i must tell you as the administrator did that your approach must to be chaged radicaly as quick as you can.
you sound as a sad one. if i wrong please stop read my message right now.
i gonna explain.
you must be happy, ok not happy but at least not sad as you sound.
everytime, all the time, never be sad.
the sadness is the food of the Y"H, the Y"H likes it so much that it leads you everytime to fall because you are in a depression.
and the fall is the drug for that, and afterwards you are sunked in a depession again and fall etc.
its a self destruct cycle, that if you don't change your approach you won't go out from.
be happy. just as those smiley ;D :D ;D
![](https://guardyoureyes.com/components/com_kunena/template/default/images/emoticons/new/smile.png)
:D ;D
as i learned in my daily tora lesson from my rebbe, never! but never! be sad. even after 10000000000000 falls. (i'm sure you havn't got to this number yet :D) even one minute after fall.
that change with the thousand tools in GYE site gonna help you in your journey to break free.
never be in depression!!!