DAY 17 Erev Shabbos Bo
Man these days are going slow. It feels like so long ago the last time I fell, why am I only at 17?
I know I know "the number is not the point, it's me and my growth that matters, it's every second I held back that I keep forever, my focus should be on future" bla bla bla - why am I only at 17? >
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In other news, I did something stupid this morning, well I did a few stupid things this morning, but one in particular. I was surfing kosherly (if such a thing exists), and I saw a link which was uchy, and I clicked on it. I have no idea why, because I was even bracing myself to look away in case something would actually show up, but I clicked on it.
WHY???????
I got a new chavrusa, and I'm going to try learning something else for the remainder of the zman.
This seems to be my best option at this point, so that means it's the ratzon H-shem. What could be better?