Last night and parts of today, I have been feeling the "twinge"  of PMO temptation.  It was of the strength and type that would have normally overtaken me, but b"h, I was able to keep aware:

1). That the temptation with associated "thought track" was a manifestation of my addicted brain wanting to get its fix.

2). That to entertain ANY curiosity regarding the temptation was essentially assenting to it. (e.g.: seeing if I had any questionable pictures left on my computer or phone). 

3). That I really didn't want to succumb and I would feel terrible later if I had succumbed and I would have to update here to say that I had a fall.  I don't want to do that.     

There has been an on-and-off twinge today and I am anticipating some rough days ahead.  That is how it usually is.  When I resist the temptation, it lingers for a bit.                                                                                                                                                       

It’s truly amazing accomplishment!

Hey! 

I don't think I've met you before, so welcome if you are new! 

This is a really great post and thanks for sharing! 

It is interesting that you say the temptation lingers because I find that to be more so the case when I actually fall, but when it was just a close call the lingering is much much shorter. Sometimes I would even get chizzuk from overcoming it, but I guess there are other times that maybe are more in line with what you are saying. 

Either way - Keep up the great work and thanks for sharing your insights! 

No, I agree with you.  It is much harder to get back on track after a fall.  I have never been able to just have the one fall and then get right back on track.  But sometimes I find that when my urge is of a strong variety, it can last on-and-off for a few days.

There has been on-and-off twinge temptation, and I have been fighting it by reminding myself that it is not me who wants to act out but my addicted brain.

I have found something else that has been helping a lot.  When I have been in the moment of temptation, I put on the Superman March from Superman the Movie.  I then visualize myself as Superman like when I was a child and would daydream and fantasize that I was my favorite superhero.  And it has worked to not only feel good but it gets me out of those addictive thoughts and the associated emotions.  

I must say there is no one in the world more superman than someone fighting his urges!