formywife125 wrote on 19 May 2020 03:59:
Hi;
I acted out really badly this morning. I had lots of urges, and I didn't just move onto the next task on the schedule. It was a really bad fall- I tried to do something really bad. I didn't go all the way, but the attempt was extremely dangerous for my marraige; My goodness. How dumb can I get.
Ok, tomorrow will be clean day #1.
I just need to move to the next thing.
And I cant let so many things bother me- this addiction is my main issue, and if I'm doing well in it- I gotta be happy.
Darn.
Sorry to hear about this and hopefully this will be a great learning experience for you.
Falling can be an important opportunity for learning and becoming stronger.
Falling with lust can be compared to falling off a horse- the best thing someone can do is get right back on again.
People who have relapsed may need to learn to anticipate high-risk situations more effectively, control environmental cues that tempt them to engage in their bad habits and learn how to handle unexpected episodes of stress without returning to the bad habit. This gives them a stronger sense of self-control and the ability to get back on track.