Dear GYE Members,
I am having a harder day than usual today. I woke up this morning and I couldn't get s*xual thoughts out of my head. I started listening to something else on youtube to distract my mind, but now my Yetzer Harah is getting more clever and trying to come up with different ideas that can bring me to do something that can bring me down. It's Sunday and I am looking for a way to relax and do something exciting, everything that I think of is tied to something with lust in the back of my mind. Let me try to explain, like, maybe I should go rent a bike and go biking somewhere, but even that is tied in the back of my mind to the oppotunity of being able to check out women. Until, I know my intentions are pure, it's probably better for me to stay at home and sit on the couch.