Day 30.  Not much to report other then it was another great day of life.  No slips or falls non needed or wanted.  Thank you all for your support. 

sci1977 wrote on 20 Dec 2009 02:58:


That's really ALOT to report!

Ditto on the eye man. No news is  not only good news....ITS ALL THE NEWS WE WANNA HEAR!!!

Day 31 and still holding strong.  No slips or falls and needed or wanted.  Not much to actually report on me.  Thinking positive and living ever second.  Working hard on letting G-d take control over everything and think when I make a decision, its one that G-d would approve of.  I have left my hands blank and put guidance to them.  My heart and all of me feels so much better.  I have been trying to write out my story now for about a week and am having trouble doing so.  I find myself repulsed by how I got here and how I let myself get that way.  I guess actually putting in words is tougher then ever anticipated.  I look at each day since I started writing and all that keeps pouring into my mind is, How sick I have been and what did I do to my wife?  I will finish this story and move forward.  I question whether or not my wife will ever forgive me, or if I can forgive myself fully.  I am living life to the utmost now.  But, I know today and forever more I have to love myself first.  Put my life in G-d's hands and remember to think about all that is good and decent about me.  I WILL WIN THE BATTLES AND THE WAR!!!!!!

Wow thanks for the beautiful post. I think once you get past this and you and your wife see the new wonderful person youve become it will make it all the more easier for you and your wife to forgive. Hatzlacha.

You are a powerful and inspiring person. And my experience is that from the deepest darkness, comes the most blinding light!

sci,

you are an honest inspiration.
You are trying so hard to heal
and your feelings are so real
that their sincerity seems to grab onto my heart
and I cant help but daven that Hashem accepts your heartfelt prayers
and shower you and your wife with real, lasting love and happiness.

Write that story bit by bit.
I think that there will be much to learn from your past
and future.

Thank you all for helping me.  I am almost done with the story.  I have a feeling Reb Guard will have a lot to edit.  I hope by getting it all out will help in healing me.

Cant wait. Not only it will heal you, imsure its gonna help many of us on the forum. Keep rolling scifi.

sci you're the man

imtrying25 wrote on 20 Dec 2009 21:05:


I second that.

Anxiously awaiting your story.  Good luck.

  --Eye.

Nuuuuuuuuuuuuu, whers the story??? Is it gonna be a drama or scifi? :D :D :D ;D

imtrying25 wrote on 21 Dec 2009 13:22:


I think it will be sci-non-fi 

Other day not much to report.  Heavily working on the story.  It's non fiction for sure.  Just needs a lot of edit by Reb Guard.

No slips or falls non needed or wanted.

KUTGW

  --E.