Thank you all for keeping me up.  I learned a lot from this individual.  He always made me smile with something he had done, or wanted to do.  His life for the past eight years has been one filled with much pain and suffering battling cancer.  He never complained never thought of himself, he was always worried about about his wife, kids and grankids.  I miss him dearly and really have had a hard time in not having tears roll down my face everytime I think of him.  I always knew one day he would die as we all will.  I for one was not ready for him to.  I've thought this morning about mortality.  He lived everyday to the fullest and will push ever onword now.  My journey now means a little more and with G-'ds help I will keep this up.  I will dedicate more to living, like he did.  With many tears and a heavy heart sometimes wonderful clear decisions are made.  I will dedicate the rest of my road to 90 to him.  Today is day 50 of being clean and sober.  The sun will shine on me now matter what in sadness, stress or well times.  I will keep it simple and really think and do more then just sit idol and watch life pass me by.  No slips or falls, non needed or wanted.  Thank you to my wife for being such a wonderful person and understanding that at points yesterday, the day of her birthday, she was understanding and completly selfless.  I learn more and more each day about living and yesterday in the face of someones death it really opened my eyes to how I need tol live.

I WILL WIN THE BATTLES AND THE WAR- WITH G-D'S HELP!!!

Without a doubt, he knows how you've grown, and he's doubly happy that you've learned from him!

Thanks SB.  I keep saying this yucky feeling will disappear over time.  Then I started realizing that time is the healer of all things. 

Sci im astounded more and more by each one of your posts. Thanks for sharing. It really helps me when i read what you write.

Have yourself a Great Week!!!

We love ya bro!!!

Beautiful post, Sci.

Shavua Tov,

  --Eye.

Very sincerer words, SCI.
death of young man is a big trigger for teshuva.
i wish we adopt it for that goal.
shavua tov!

Day 51 clean and sober.  Not much to report.  Still sad, very sad.  One more day for MM.  Don't feel like writing today.  Just live every moment to the fullest.  A life of living is what we should all need to strive for.  I am working on that one moment at a time. No slips or falls, non needed or wanted.

I WILL WIN THE BATTLES AND THE WAR-WITH G-D'S HELP!!!

B"H on your 51st...May you only have Happy Things to report in the future..A Gutten Voch!

KUTGW.

And B'soros Tovos.

  --Eye.

Sorry I didnt see this till today.

I too recently lost a dear friend, and I know that Dov has too.

Your wifes birthday didnt 'coincidentally' happen the same time.
Hashem was subtly reminding you that life and death are one and the same.
Both have much to teach us.
Both are chesed, because both originate from HKBH.

May all future nisyonos be via simcha only.

I'm glad to hear that you're continuing to do what you need to.

Day 52 of being clean and sober.  Really not much to report.  I had a long day.  More to come tomorrow once I take in the day fully.  I love my family and my wife more today then any other day of my life.  Always remember your parents.  No slips or falls, non needed or wanted.  Felling less sad today.

I WILL WIN THE BATTLES AND THE WAR-WITH G-D'S HELP!!!

Hey Sci,

Your exactly 27 days ahead of me, and I find your daily updates hugely encouraging, KUTGW!!!

habaletaher wrote on 11 Jan 2010 05:00:


and exactly 42 days ahead of me!!! 
And I'm 15 behind you Haba!!! 
All I know, the more people working on streaks, the easier it is for me. So thanks!

sci1977 wrote on 11 Jan 2010 04:56:


Glad to hear it.