I think that the more you grow, the more you'll find ways to go back and further improve the earlier steps that you've worked on.

Kinda like the better we become, the more we have to go back an do teshuva - because on our new level, we can see what was wrong with the way we were before, and what needs to be fixed.

The fact that you're going through this process tells me (and you) that you've grown an incredible amount, and you're on a whole new level, B"H!

Keep living the change, and enjoying life!

SB, thank you for your words as always.  The process has changed me for sure in a good way!!!  Baby steps and we'll get there.

Baby steps for YOU, maybe...I'm still watching you with awe.

One baby step for an addict...one giant leap for addict-kind!

Glad your watching.  I am in awe of you as well.  Not many post here regualarly, so the ones that do I really appreciate.  THANKS for cheering me on!!!

beautiful post sci. Thanks for sharing. I lean so much from you!! And i learn more and more each day. Thank you and keep on trucking. Your getting really far. Not only in your fight against addiction but also in so many other ways!

Thanks IT25.  I learn from you too.  I especially am learning from the side of telling your wife or not.  My wife found out before I was clean.

sci1977 wrote on 05 Jan 2010 19:08:
I dont think you should learn from me. It might make you a little nutty! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

imtrying25 wrote on 05 Jan 2010 19:10:


I'm nutty already, haven't you figured that out yet?  One nut needs another nuts.  Hey, that could be a GUE phrase on the homepage?

sci1977 wrote on 05 Jan 2010 20:46:
Well i was kinda worring that maybe you were nuts but i was still hoping for the best. :-\

I am certainly nuts!!!  Another phrase for the homepage.  Welcome to the big bag of nuts!!!

Your stories and honesty inspire me...thanks for being there when i needed you.

humanbeing wrote on 05 Jan 2010 21:28:


Thanks.  You inspire me also.  I realized today that anyone who take the chance to come to this website is not only smart they are inspiring as well.  It does not matter if you have been here from the beginning or if you signed up one minute ago. 

I absolutely agree with you, Sci!

And we might all be a little not-normal. But (I think I've said this before) look out your window, millions of people with no connection to kedusha (no, not you, bro ). That's normal. Do we want to be a part of that?

Oh, and Reb Human - We're here for you - and you're here for us, too. Like Sci said, the very fact that you've joined is inspiring. Plus, I think that on a deepr level, the more people we are fighting together, the easier the battle is...it's the koach of a tzibur.

And maybe even b'rov am hadras melech?!

Sweet like Honey!!!

sci1977 wrote on 05 Jan 2010 20:59:

Quit a good point!

I like roasted nuts, providing they are not burned.

So you got caught up in the fire, nearly got burned but then you were saved, and now you have a nice tan and taste superb.

Thanks to the cook, of course.