Sorry to hear about the hard times 
Great work with the honesty'
Continued Hatzlacha

tiger wrote on 27 Apr 2017 20:54:

Incredible you were able to stop in middle. Wow.   What's the plan to stop earlier - by not starting? What triggers are you going to avoid? Take your courage to the next step. Hatzlocha.

Im really not sure what triggered this, obviously it all started with the small Amazon slip that I mentioned earlier, but it can also be that I got pulled in this week to worrying about money which for me is a disaster, also was waking up earlier couse of rosh chodesh davening and was tired, when I am tired I am nervous and vulnerable! Could it be that I have to be carful not to be tired?? How can u live a life without being tired??

I will continue being honest no matter what with God's help of course, enough bs!!!!


Thanks everyone for the kind words

You have to plan how to deal with anxiety and exhaustion. Be prepared. It makes a big difference. Do you speak with anyone?

Yes I have a few people that I talk too, can any body help me how to deal with tiredness which is  like a vulnerable switch for me?? It nocks me down and makes me become nervous and snappy and Al of a sudden life becomes negative, does anybody have a positive way to view this??

If the tiredness you refer to is that you're tired from lack of sleep then i suggest getting more sleep, or having coffee. If the tired is like "i don't know what i'm doing in life" tired, then i suggest talking to someone in your personal life that can help you out, or get in touch with someone here and explain your situation to them and hopefully they can help. (i would recommend getting someone in your personal life to help as they probably will know you better)

Its the lack of sleep tiredness, which keeps me to busy making sure I have enough sleep, I can't wake up to learn early or daven early couse I have to watch out for my tiredness which can couse me to act out?? 

tiger wrote on 30 Apr 2017 15:47:

Coffee!

Lol, that simple, I try not to drink to many a day

tiger wrote on 30 Apr 2017 15:57:

Sounds like you are very busy and over focused on getting enough sleep. Just be normal. Eat well, sleep well and exercise. Be prepared that when you are tired that you will need to reach out and call someone.

cordnoy wrote on 30 Apr 2017 15:58:

I find that IF coffee helps it is only to help me push myself...

Funny after we had this conversation I ended up going to sleep very late last night, somebody was chewing my ears off, had to coffees today and overall was trying to be happy and not let it get to me.

On day 5 today, it's funny how different I feel now on day five! I am not feeling upset at all about my reset, just the opposite I feel great that I was honest, I am still in the process of sharing my last fall with somebody that is close to me and knows my struggles, i have not been able to get to him yet, so I'm still feeling Abit under the bus! This is also planned from above!

tiger wrote on 02 May 2017 01:30:

You're in touch with Mike Tyson?

got it!!!!

Update​: I was able to honestly share my last fall and feel great about that, I am not looking to be a chashuva guy anymore in people's eyes, it's honesty I'm looking for, that the least I can do for good myself family and friends.

tthanks everybody for he chozik! Let's all keep on chugging and keep the honesty alive and kicking!!