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Re: BIG SHOT!? 05 Jul 2015 17:01 #258718

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Not too long ago I was in a hotel by myself. It's a long story and I really didn't want to be in that nisayon. I did not even open the television. I felt so happy that Hashem had helped me be sober for months and I felt simply great.


Kol Hakovod! Good for you. So often the yetzer harah, creeps up so quitily saying "
yetezer harah
I just need to check out the weather for tomorrow

yetezer tov
No you don't, who are you trying to fool
yetezer harah
Could you pleaase be quitet! it's already on, just a sec. it's almost the weather...
yetezer tov
but the chart.... you know it's not good for you....try...you can stop...
yetezer harah - completely ignoring y.t.
this is not really so bad, anyways it's almost over, just ten more seconds..hay! whats that...
two hours later. yetezer tov
ok, you got your sin, but your bombed! Go to sleep already
yetezer harah
hmmm. soon.......
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Re: BIG SHOT!? 05 Jul 2015 21:06 #258738

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Yeah

I know it only too well

Re: BIG SHOT!? 06 Jul 2015 15:01 #258777

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Good morning everyone. For those of you who didn't have your coffee yet, hi.
B'H today is the sixth "one day" since I restarted my chart, and Hashem has been kind to me, so far many of the possible triggers have been hiding (or went away for the summer). That said, I though I would share another pearl of wisdom from Professor Seuss

Today you are You,
that is truer then true
There is no one alive
who is Youer than You.



(personally I believe there is al lot of depths in that poem above. No person can tell us what we can and can not do, Only we can go out there and accomplish the things that were meant for us to do, and that, is truer then true. )
BIG SHOT!
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Yirai's Memories
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Dr. Seuss - You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

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Last Edit: 06 Jul 2015 15:05 by stillgoing.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 06 Jul 2015 16:40 #258791

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Right.

Unfortunately we can also be our worst enemy by putting artificial limits on ourselves that we have no business putting.

Do we really value ourselves as much as we should?

Do we we really believe in our true potential?

Our souls are in reality a part of Hashem.

Therefore it stands to reason that our potential for achievement is also infinite.

Let's shoot for the Heavens!

Re: BIG SHOT!? 06 Jul 2015 16:46 #258793

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stillgoing wrote:
Good morning everyone. For those of you who didn't have your coffee yet, hi.


11:00....no coffee yet!?
please look at my logo!
there is no excuse not to be on one's third by then, and contemplatin' where the 4th might be.
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

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Re: BIG SHOT!? 07 Jul 2015 15:55 #258884

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BAAM! Ouch.
BIG SHOT!
Free Choice?!
Yirai's Memories
STORY TIME :)

Dr. Seuss - You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

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Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 04:05 #258960

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If at first we don't succeed, we try, try again.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 05:00 #258962

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And don't forget:

Success is failure turned inside out,
A ray of hope when we're racked with doubt,
You can never tell how close you are,
Victory may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worst you must not quit!

Remember Hashem gave each man his test,
He knows our struggles, and sees our stress,
He watches us battle, year after year,
But realize He's with us, we need not fear!
If we turn to Him at our time of need,
He will turn and save us, we will succeed!
So keep on trying, and don’t give in,
Hashem will help us, we will surely win!

Sorry SG, I just couldn't resist, despite the late hour!

Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 15:30 #258992

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I agree...about the coffee. And everything else. Great thread!
0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness.

Lo ba-shamayim hi
Mellow out.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 16:43 #258998

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TalmidChaim wrote:
I agree...about the coffee. And everything else. Great thread!


If you agree regardin' coffee, you are fine.
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: BIG SHOT got shot. 08 Jul 2015 16:56 #259003

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Yudi
Success is failure turned inside out,
A ray of hope when we're racked with doubt,
You can never tell how close you are,
Victory may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit,
It’s when things seem worst you must not quit!

Remember Hashem gave each man his test,
He knows our struggles, and sees our stress,
He watches us battle, year after year,
But realize He's with us, we need not fear!
If we turn to Him at our time of need,
He will turn and save us, we will succeed!
So keep on trying, and don’t give in,
Hashem will help us, we will surely win!

To see such a reply
I must admit
I was a bit surprised
But it seems to fit

Words so deep
Written on the go
What else can you do
I would like to know

In a moment of haste
I have caused great waste
Searching for what
Should have been shut

Forgive me Hashem לְמַֽעַן שְׁמֶֽך
I know I have sinned against דְּרָכֶ֥יהָ
So deep is my sin, that only You can forgive
It will strengthen Your Name, to all those who live

And now that I’m trying, to learn from my past
Please help me, Hashem, with this trying task
I must stay clean, it’s not a matter of choice,
Please help me Hashem, heed my small voice.

And next time that I’m faced, with the challenge of lust,
Please help me Hashem, In You do I trust
When the urge is so Tempting, and I’m starting to fall,
Please help me Hashem, for You can do All,

Please help me Hashem, my heart is calling
Please help me Hashem, I’m tired of falling.
Please help me Hashem, I know that You will,
Please help me Hashem, as I climb up this hill.
Please help me Hashem, though the strong winds are blowing,
Please help me Hashem, so I can be Still Going.
BIG SHOT!
Free Choice?!
Yirai's Memories
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Dr. Seuss - You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

FSKOT! (Fell Shmell--Keep on Trucking) (The Rebba R' Bards)
Last Edit: 08 Jul 2015 16:56 by stillgoing.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 17:16 #259007

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Ummm, Please explain cordnoy (if you don't mind), and yes, I already had my coffee this morning.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 08 Jul 2015 18:01 #259012

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Yudi wrote:
Ummm, Please explain cordnoy (if you don't mind), and yes, I already had my coffee this morning.


Look at page 5 in this thread.
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


Disclaimer: I am not a cheerleader; B"H, there are many on the site. I am here to change myself, and with God's help, by some mistake, I might even help change others.

MY POSTS ARE NOT WRITTEN AS A MODERATOR UNLESS EXPLICITLY STATED.

Re: BIG SHOT!? 13 Jul 2015 15:32 #259334

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Serenity
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“I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes me a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

I walk down another street.”


― Portia Nelson, There's a Hole in My Sidewalk: The Romance of Self-Discovery
(Quoted by our very own Serenity)

I must live in a ghetto.
I can't seem to find my way out of this street!
And how come that hole keeps hiding until I'm in it!
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Re: BIG SHOT!? 14 Jul 2015 14:32 #259421

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Hello. I’m having a hard time writing normally without poems or stories. Officially I tell myself that it comes out clearer to myself when it’s in a story/poem form, but maybe the real reason is because there is a certain anonymity to writing indirectly. Of course, everyone here is anonymous, but once you are here for a certain amount of time, your code-name becomes your second identity, and you begin to identify with it as you do with your real name. Thus, I don’t want to write that I’ve been falling repeatedly on and off for about a week. I don’t want to be on the receiving end of everyone feeling bad for me and telling me that it’ll get better. I want to be better now! I really feel like my two year old right now. I mess up, people are willing to be sympathetic about it, and I’m still not happy. But how can I be happy when I’m caught in this murky molasses-like putrid quicksand. Today, I decided that I would begin anew and not give in to the lust. I also decided that yesterday, and last week, and last year, and for every year since I was a little kid. What’s going to be different this time? As a little ray of light, although my falls have gotten much deeper due to much stronger tests that I’ve been getting, I no longer fall for the “little” struggles that I used to bend to every day. I guess that is called progress. I never used to do the things that I’m doing these days, but then again, when I was in yeshiva I did not have these tests that I have now. All in all, I’m somewhat skeptical (I’m actually Stillgoing, not Skeptical, He’s a mod.) but also a tiny bit hopeful that progress has been made.
BIG SHOT!
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STORY TIME :)

Dr. Seuss - You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose. You're on your own, and you know what you know. And you are the guy who'll decide where to go.

FSKOT! (Fell Shmell--Keep on Trucking) (The Rebba R' Bards)
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