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Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 26 May 2014 08:17 #232434

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mischaretani wrote:
Day 27!
This morning I woke up aroused- first time in about a week- so I made a mental note of what it would be like to die right then, knowing the last thing I would ever do on this world is masturbate. So instead I forced myself out of bed and went to shacharis, thinking that davening shacharis is a much better last action to do in this world. And guess what? I'm still here, and clean!!!


Just an apropos quip from R' Avigdor Miller Zatza"l:
He was walking in Brooklyn and a hostile youth called out to him in passing "Drop Dead Jew!"
so R' Miller turns to him and says "That's the last thing I'll ever do!"



Thanks for the chizuk idea - keep up the Gr8 work!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 27 May 2014 21:54 #232562

B"h, today I have reached 31 days!!! 2 more days until lag b'tahara. But no bonfires for me

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 29 May 2014 18:41 #232669

B"H today is lag b'tahara!
current technique that I find is working well for me: One of my triggers is just lying in bed. That's where I used to do most of my masturbating. So at night I only go into my bed when I know my wife is either in the bedroom already, or about to be. And in the morning I try to get out of bed within 60 seconds of waking up (unless I hit snooze, then I have 60 seconds from when my snooze ends). side-benefit: I also make it to the early shacharis!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 29 May 2014 18:48 #232670

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Veamartem koh lechai...

KUTGW!!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל


"If it would be so easy there wouldn't be a GYE, but if it would be impossible there also wouldn't be a GYE."
"Sometimes a hard decision leads to an easier outcome."
- General Grant


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Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 01 Jun 2014 22:52 #232797

B"H Today I reached 36 days- 2x חי!!!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 02 Jun 2014 01:45 #232801

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Great job, mischaretani! Keep it up; you're an inspiration to us all here!
0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness.

Lo ba-shamayim hi
Mellow out.

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 09 Jun 2014 22:10 #233132

B"H Today is 44!!!
I feel rejuvenated by a clean shavuos, and I'm almost ready to celebrate my own shavuos!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 09 Jun 2014 23:01 #233144

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Happy to see that!
Keep up the Good work! .... (hm, seems like I just answered my own question about what kutgw stands for )

Anyway have a blessed ascent to day 45, day 50 and beyond. Each passing day says you're a winner!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 12 Jun 2014 21:25 #233422

B"H Today is 47! Just 3 more days to my personal shavuos.

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 12 Jun 2014 21:30 #233423

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WOW!!!! How incredible!!!!

Could you explain to us how you are clean? What strategies have you done?


KOL!!!!!! (btw you're living right as opposed to just not falling?)
I am happy to speak on the phone. Please email me at dms1234ongye@gmail.com

My name is Daniel, I go to face to face meetings and I work the 12 steps with a sponsor. 

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 12 Jun 2014 21:51 #233425

- I sponsored myself. $90 if make it to no, and if I don't make it, $2 for every clean day.
- I installed the k9 filter on my computer. my wife has the password. and i added a button to my toolbar so that I can add websites to the block list without putting in the password.
- my old masturbation times were at night in bed, in the morning in bed, or during long stretches when I'm alone in the house. So I don't get into bed unless my wife is in the bedroom, or if I know she will be coming shortly. And in the morning, I try to get out of bed within 60 seconds of waking up. (unless I hit snooze, then it's 60 seconds from my second wakeup.)

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 16 Jun 2014 02:45 #233568

B"H! I have reached 50 days! May I continue to 51 and beyond!

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 16 Jun 2014 05:34 #233572

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Nice work! You're inspirational, and motivation for me
0% Tolerance and 100% Self-Forgiveness.

Lo ba-shamayim hi
Mellow out.

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 17 Jun 2014 22:27 #233723

I would like to publicly thank Hashem for His help on this journey. When I started out, the first week took an immense effort, but now that I have 50 days behind me I am finding it easier each day. But that doesn't mean that I can let my guard down- so instead I am posting this thank you with the prayer that the next 50 should bring me even closer to Hashem.

Re: mischaretani's climb to 90 18 Jun 2014 21:51 #233775

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50 days is great. Definitely don't get complacent, and whatever you do don't try to do any of your old behavior just to see if you are better than before, to check that you won't fall this time around, because you will fall.

Keep up the good work.
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