welcome TSH!!!!
i feel your pain but please feel your hope as well,
the idea that you fell after going to the psychologist doesn't mean he can't help you, in a way i think thats very normal for sure if it was the first time, your opening up a can of warms so big chances you will fall but that might very well be the beginning of your recovery,
keep up the good work and keep us posted,
kol tuv!!!!!KOMT!!!!!!!