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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:07 #217639

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so you say "i'm anoynk"? annoying

there is no stirah, you can join this one as well, we work together.

but beware no movies alowed either.

TZ beit zolst eim "e" pustin dein noombir
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I'm just a dude, another guy on this bus.
Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel
"Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" ~ Dov
Last Edit: 28 Aug 2013 23:09 by Pidaini.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:12 #217640

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mr. emunah wrote:
when i see you it makes me singh.


It makes you want to wear a turban?
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

And every day that you want to waste, that you want to waste, you can
And every day that you want to wake up, that you want to wake, you can
And every day that you want to change, that you want to change, yeah
I'll help you see it through...

My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:13 #217641

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Pidaini wrote:
I had a thought,

The gemara in Sanhedrin says that the Torah is called "toshe'ah" for it is "mateshes kocho shel adam"

The name Torah comes beause it shows us the way that Hashem wants us to follow. That is the way we are supposed to sit down to learn, "I am now going to let go of my plans for life, and see what Hashem wants me to do". If a person does that then automatically the plans that a person made for himself which are "kocho shel adam" are deminished, and he can see what life Hashem wants.


My Rebbe says over a similar vort, that the Torah is mateshes the feeling of kochi v'otzem yadi. But your vort gives explanation as to how and why. Fabulous!
אלא יש לו לייחד כל מעשיו לשמו הגדול לבד, ולא ישתף עמו דבר אחר
That's the goal. The key to everything. Working on it, bs"d.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:27 #217643

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Pidaini wrote:
Love it, but how did this end up on my thread?

he was serenading the breslover chasid inside you
Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise
~Inna beshem ZS

Give, Forgive
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The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting.
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:28 #217644

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Gevura Shebyesod wrote:
mr. emunah wrote:
when i see you it makes me singh.


It makes you want to wear a turban?

that was borderline triggering.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:41 #217654

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sorry....

Uh oh the mods are coming... meep meep... zzzip!
!אנא עבדא דקודשא בריך הוא

וּבְיָדְךָ כֹּחַ וּגְבוּרָה וּבְיָדְךָ לְגַדֵּל וּלְחַזֵּק לַכֹּל

And every day that you want to waste, that you want to waste, you can
And every day that you want to wake up, that you want to wake, you can
And every day that you want to change, that you want to change, yeah
I'll help you see it through...

My story: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/111583-hello-my-friends

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 28 Aug 2013 23:43 #217655

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esrogs calling
to the water thats falling
wont you wash me clean?

esrogs been out in the sun too long
to long?
clean me please
make me shyne

like the water can,
like a watering can
remove the dirt
like in the mikva, a shirt

Ive been growing cold
in the winter months
clinginn to the tree
in the snow and the sleet

where is up?
what is up?
the juicy red apple is picked with care
the peaches with cream fill the autumn air

what am i?
to stay on the tree to rot?
cut loose
like a caboose

I saw the seasons pass and the groves where bare
i was so alone
all in despair

i numbed my feelings
didnt think about the frieling
i was scratched and hit
bit by bit

but my time has now come
to unify
you and i
with the spine moutheyes

wash me clean
with the sho eveva
ruach hakodesh
not the aveira

the heart is one
in the centre
I will come clean
it's my tyme to shyne
it's my tyme to shyne
it's my tyme to shyne

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 00:32 #217674

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Awesome; makes me feel like an esrog in Chaim Heller's shop on Bathurst street!
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 00:33 #217675

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thank you for the kind words

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 00:33 #217676

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now up my karma
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 00:36 #217677

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up mine too

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 11:37 #217716

i used to look back all the time saying "oh no! what have i done! Hashem help me erase the past." and i never heard a response.
finally i started looking forward saying "Hashem i'm leaving the past to you and i'm forgetting all about it. help me have a good future. help me from here and on be the person You want me to be." and that's where i realized Hashem had been waiting to help me all along
Last Edit: 30 Aug 2013 10:31 by nitzotzeloki. Reason: realized people might not appreciate what i said and the system wouldnt let me just delete it

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 16:55 #217740

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Had an interesting day yesterday, in the morning there was a lot of loneliness.

I went to Geulah in the afternoon, there are a lot of english accents there. so I took with an mp4 player and was listening to a shiur. As I was walking back a guy sticks his hand in my face, I looked up and it was a good friend of mine.

It was such a good feeling, a few weeks ago I would have noticed him (together with many more english accents) long before he noticed me.
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I'm just a dude, another guy on this bus.
Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel
"Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" ~ Dov

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 21:37 #217803

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dov wrote:
The alone part was what most of us have always been doing to 'deal' with life. Sufferring alone. Nearly everyone I have ever talked with who has this problem admits they feel deeply alone at times, and their secret makes them alone in a (better-than-me) crowd, alone in (shameful) shul, alone at (lust-filled chasunas), alone in bed with their own (faithful-and-undersexed) wives.

It's alonely life indeed, being a secret perv. And as a frum one, it is even lonelier...

Thank G-d it does not have to stay that way!


Wow, I really felt that way!! I didn't notice it ever, but I could just never find my "place"! (and still have a hard time, but it's much easier)
Yankel | My Ladder | Talking to Hashem
I'm just a dude, another guy on this bus.
Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel
"Nothing changes as long as everything stays the same" ~ Dov
Last Edit: 30 Aug 2013 13:11 by Pidaini.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 29 Aug 2013 21:57 #217809

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Where did Dov write that? That says it so well.

ויותר יעקב לבדו...

EDIT: Never mind I found it.
אלא יש לו לייחד כל מעשיו לשמו הגדול לבד, ולא ישתף עמו דבר אחר
That's the goal. The key to everything. Working on it, bs"d.
Last Edit: 29 Aug 2013 22:00 by MendelZ.
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