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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 18 Aug 2013 21:29 #216498

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I won't comment on the story with Shaindle Malka and Zlatie (though you left out the significant part about waking tizzy at 8 ). I'll just mention for the benefit of those looking for me at the kosel that besides for my yellow hat I have blue overalls with rockoe's fleishig bagels plantation logo covering yellow tzitzis amd a few pieces of straw sticking out of my beard
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 18 Aug 2013 21:42 #216500

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Pidaini wrote:
HOT OFF THE PRESS!!!!!

Motzei Shabbos Ki Seitzei

Yerushalayim Ihr Hakodesh

1:30 am


As the Pidaini family was sleeping soundly (since like 12:30), Yentah Zlatah Pidaini started screaming!! She was burning with fever and not very happy. Her parents tried all they could to settle her, but before he knew it Mr. Pidaini realized the sun had come up already.

He decided to go daven early and then go back to sleep later. So as soon as Yenti and her dear mother Shaindle Malkah went out, he tucked himself under the blankets (after pushing away a thought that he didn't want to think about), and very quickly fell into a deep slumber.

He awoke with a start, "could it be?" was that him? did he just have that dream? He was scared and disappointed. One thing was funny though, he awoke while telling himself (in the "nightmare") that he can't fall because he can't tell the guys on GYE!!

He tried getting a hold of help, but to no avail. He finally got out of bed and started chatting with some friends, and they all lived happily ever after.

THE END

*************

It was actually quite scary, I hadn't had such thoughts in a really looooong time, and it came as a big shock.

I was a quite upset and disappointed, I am trying really hard and have been such a good boy!!! but I looked at it as the RBSH"O was showing the Satan that he has really special children who don't ask questions, and do what he wants regardless if they understand it or not. That thought helped me get out of bed and get help.

Thanks everyone!!!

I commiserate. I know the feeling. I had some bad dreams a few weeks ago that really shuck me up also. Just stay strong and remember that unless you really did something to cause it don't let it get you down. (Even if you did do something to cause it, don't let it get you down )

Hatzlacha,
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 19:25 #216549

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sorry I wasn't online like usual
no connection in the woods

glad you came out of it...basically unscathed
sounds like youre even stronger now
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 23:09 #216589

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I may be stronger, surely ain't feeling it right now.

Today was after yesterday (are you serious?!) and for some reason instead of yesterday, today there were only women on the street!!

Talking to people about it is soooooo helpful, and I spoke to like 5 (HS, MZ, Rebbe, TZ, and the rest of the chats are considered one) and needed every single one.

So in afterthought, I wouldn't say I am stronger, just my army is stronger!!
And we have the very best General, all together now 2..4..6..8..Who do we appreciate.....HASHEM!!!!

Thank You Hashem for yet another clean day!!!! I wish I could feel the hug while you're giving it to me, rather than have to wait until afterwards to realize that you have given it to me, but that is probably the way you want it, so I'll appreciate that too.
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Have a great day, unless, of course, you made other plans. ~ obbormottel
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 23:17 #216590

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gotta wake up
U - uuu- ppppp

gotta shake up
ppp ppp ppp


when you know
that the night's glow
is just a paper tiger
hiding in the woods

screaming yentas
scolding shaindies
slumber - ing
Yan-ke-leh

so the summech mem
he sizzle sazles
blows the dreams
as dreams from the past

through his long horn he blows
the call to catch the sparks
you gotta get up
get him out
call the marines
if you wanna stay clean

blow away the chaff
yeah
grow away from past
with a past that will last
with the velveted seventhcloaks
and the silkworms prayersash

yeah.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 23:23 #216591

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Garlic bread.

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 23:34 #216592

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I dunno what it means, but it sure sounds good

keep it up, the both of you!
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
"Tryin' and doin' are two different thin's - tryin' is hopin'; doin' is succeedin'.
"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 19 Aug 2013 23:34 #216593

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No double cheese fleishege pizza bagels??

even after all that??!!

THAT'S NOT FAIR!! :'(
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 20 Aug 2013 00:08 #216596

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Fleishig

Bagels

Eagles

Beagles

Hot
dogs
flying
bagels

Real ity
Uni tee
soaring above the plane
where the planes soar
near the serpents
ints

when a dog get hot
he arcs towards the riverbottom
purifying
splashifying
redemption
purity
wetness
witness
the rebirth
of a new minute
a new moment
in time to start from the begining
like the old man from
uman
in the ancient tounge cried
erst is miq va

we can learn from the hound
gotta sprinkle winkle
in the holy droplets which have come as one

then the bread of the earth will soar
above the mundane
with a holyness
lift it up lift us up
bring the sparks to fly the bagels
dont let the bagels bring flies
keep the lord of
the flies
in his
pit
gotta splishy splashy
no air
redemtion
ne hotdog flyin bagels

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 20 Aug 2013 00:16 #216598

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mr. emunah wrote:
Garlic bread.

thanks for that. I was hungry
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 20 Aug 2013 21:52 #216669

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tehillimzugger wrote:
mr. emunah wrote:
Garlic bread.

thanks for that. I was hungry

you're welcome
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 21 Aug 2013 09:15 #216731

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thanks ZEMMY; what color is that mouthwash by the Way?

Inna: no need to worry about Zlata Yentie. I was @ the Pidainis yesterday ('twas verry busy), Shaindle Malka didn't even acknowledge my existence but Zlata Yentie! She walks up to me and says GO BACK!

Talk about rudeness!
?דער באשעפער לאווט מיך אייביג. וויפיל לאוו איך עהם
My Creator loves me at all times. How great is my love for him?

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 21 Aug 2013 11:39 #216738

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Yes it is VERY busy. and I had a very very scary insight today

First it was that I have a built in Middos Machine. Just instead of an annoying electronic "middos alert, middos alert", mine says "go look, women, porn, fun etc".

So my alert has been going off these past few days, but I told myself it was mood, or tired, or both. But this morning I was in a good mood, and rested, and the alert was still beeping.

The story is like this. My brother, whom I am very close to, is hopefully getting engaged soon. My parents are here, and are obviously very busy with that and him.

So this morning I had a startling discovery, I'M HUMAN!!!!

and humans have selfish thoughts, and desires!! (really?! )

The one I had this morning (at least the first one that came up) was basically that I am not really happy with my life, and as long as brother wasn't engaged itwas still something imperfect for him, but now, he's going to have a perfect life and I'm left to mine.

So that is why it was so dificult to give him his space that he needed last night! and that's why I wanted my parents to give ME all their attention!!

I was horrified when I realized this, "is this really me?! I'm a terrible person!!".

It took some time of "Hashem put me here, this is perfect" and a heartfelt tefilah during Shma Koleini, to calm myself down.

I am Human, I have feelings, but I am not in control over the actual feeling, just over my reaction to them. The feelings and thoughts come, and I need then (and now) to turn my life back to the Ribono Shel Olam "Hashem I give over my life to you, to do with it as only you know is good, and I will accept that wholeheartedly".

When I spoke to my brother a little bit later, I noticed a change in me, it was a genuine concern for him, caring, and true brotherly love "I'm here to help when you want it". Not the "I'm older, know better, let me run your life for you" feeling.

as always THANK YOU HASHEM, SO SO SO SO MUCH!!!!!
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Re: Yaakov's Ladder 21 Aug 2013 15:31 #216746

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Pidaini wrote:
First it was that I have a built in Middos Machine. Just instead of an annoying electronic "middos alert, middos alert", mine says "go look, women, porn, fun etc".

ummm.... u know that aint too marvelous, right?

Pidaini wrote:
...heartfelt tefilah during Shma Koleini
isnt it AV HARACHAMAN shma koileini...???
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I will not act out today, I will tomorrow. Maybe when I get to tomorrow, it will again be 'today'

Re: Yaakov's Ladder 21 Aug 2013 16:04 #216749

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actually munkatch says "shma koleinu, av harachaman, etc."

Nice thoughts Pidaini

Good stuff and mazel tov!!!

Your life is pretty darn good as well!
you have a healthy outlook, beautiful family (even while teething), and you are a tremendous mashpia.

so continue thanking God (I even did today, for being clean one more day, and that connection is due to you and Chesky and others) for everything and KOT!!!
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If one gives up at the first sign of a struggle, he is really not ready to be successful."
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"The right thin' to do and the hard thin' to do are usually the same."


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