yehoshua wrote on 27 Nov 2012 08:50:


What do you mean breathing space? when Im clean or when I fall?

Anyway I start today, and tomorrow is my last final exam in college and then vacations, I will have to limit the computer I think, what else can work for vacations, when there is a lot of free time?

I might be wrong on this, there are so many people here who know what they are saying... But, here goes...

I feel the taphsic is like a things to do before and after a fall or perhaps even a slip. This is how I understand taphsic. This is great, since it keeps me sober, but I feel that the aim of recovery should be to have a great meaningful life. And by that I mean breathing space, after the taphsic I can joyfully find meaning and do chessed, search for the real meaning of life.

It depends what are you in for. It is the obstacles of life, that I want to escape from, yes, I want to escape life. But once I have some breathing space, some clear thinking time without my lust knocking, I can see lifes problems not as triggers, but simply like a new day, full of fresh air and new challenges.

But hey, I am dreaming here of a perfection. The truth is somewhere else. Honestly, I am really struggeling for that right this second.


May Hashem give You a lot of simcha!!! 8)

THANK YOU!! :D 8)

That helps a lot...
I didnt see it that way, and youre completely right, I dont want to be clean in order to be clean, I want it to have a better life...
And its exactly when I feel have problems or I am stressed or preoccupied when I feel the strongest urges...