just saying hi to everyone.
i have been speaking to r' zvi meir and he told me that "we need to realize that the y"h wants us to give up and not realize that hashem is the one testing us and that if we really put our effort towards beating this thing then hashem will wipe away all of our previous sins"
additionally "every time we fall if we get up and go longer without acting out that is huge in hashems eyes and that this is such a big nisoyin and undertaking- but remember how crutial it is and how much hashem wants to help us ,and is never chas v' shalom against us."
so what did i come out with after the conversation? he asked me for a personal request -stay clean for one week.
i really don't know what to write,because i feel drained- but i thought maybe the above could help some thers who are also getting back up again. hatzlacha and bracha!!