PART 29
CHANI CHANI CHANI I WISH I CAN TALK TO YOU.
I REALLY WISH I CAN OPEN MY MOUTH AND SAY SOMETHING EVERYTHING ANYTHING..
I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WILL MAKE UP WITH YOU.
I ALWAYS CONVINCED MYSELF THAT ALTHOUGH I AM PUSHING THE ENVELOPE... I WILL ONE DAY MAKE IT UP..
UCHH I CANT TALK..
ALL I CAN DO IS LISTEN AND THINK
LISTEN AND THINK TWO THINGS I NEVER EVER DID
LISTEN LISTEN TOCHANI LISTEN TO HER
OUCH SHE IS MAKING ME SOOO NERVOUS SHE IS SO RIGHT
WHY DID I DO ALL THOS STUPID THINGS...
...NOW I AM HERE IT’S THE END OF THE ROAD ..ALL MY LAME EXCUSES WONT HELP ME!!! GEVALLLLD!!
...I RUINED MY LIFE. I HURT MY WIFE. I CAN NEVER APOLOGIZE TO HER.
I MISSED SEVEN ANNIVERSARIES SEVEN BIRTHDAYS. WHO KNOWS HOW MANY HUNDREDS OF NIGHTS SHE STAYED UP FOR ME...
...UCHHHH HOW MANY TIMES I LIED ,I EVADED THE TRUTH ,FABRICATED APPOINTMENTS, MEETINGS, PROJECTS, FOR WHAT??
...I HAVE A SON, WHO I SO WANT HIM TO LOVE ME.
HOW CAN HE LOVE A BUM WHO COMES HOME TO SHOWER AND GET CLEAN CLOTHES.
ALL I EVER DID WAS INSULT HIM, MAKE FUN OF HIS RABBEIM ,HIS TEACHERS, HIS QUESTIONS,HIS ASPIRATIONS.
NOW I AM A VEGGIE.GOOD HARRY GOOD.HOW MANY TIMES YOU TRIED TO BREAK FREE??
HOW MANY TIMES YOU WERE THIS CLOSE TO SPEAKING TO A RABBI?
BUT THE STINKING HARRY PRIDE!! ALOT TO BE PROUD OF .
WIFE IS CRUSHED ALL HER GOODNESS AND KINDNESS ,HER CHARM WAS BEATEN OUT OF HER ,
YANKI PROBABLY WON’T SAY KADDISH FOR ME.
I AM STUCK IN A BED WITH TUBES COMING IN AND OUT OF PLACES I DIDN’T KNOW EXSISTED .
..UCHHHH. THE END OF THE ROAD IS VERY LONELY. VERY DARK.
VERY SCARY .THERE IS NO ONE WAITING FOR ME AT THE LAST TRAIN STOP.
HERE IT IS GAMES OVER ,THE MONKEY IS DEAD. WHAT A WASTE OF A LIFE.
IF I MEET MY MAKER I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR MYSELF. ACCOMPLISHMENTS, ZERO.NADDA .
WHO WILL SHOW UP AT MY LEVAYA??CHANI AND MAYBE A FEW NEIGHBORS.
END OF THE ROAD.LAST STOP.
...I DON’T EVEN HAVE A CHANCE??A FEW MINUTES ??
WHAT WILL I DO IF I HAD A CHANCE?? IS THERE NO LAST CHANCE??REALLY??IF I CAN CHANGE??
I NEED ONE LAST CHANCE?? I FEEL SOO GUILTY HANGING ON TO MY LAST FEW MINUTES ON EARTH… CLINGING TO THE HOPE OF A LAST CHANCE…I NEED ONE MINUTE..I CAN’T DIE YET..PLEASE..PLEASE..
..UCHHH SHE STOPPED TALKING! GREAT. I AM DEAD NOW .DEAD. SILENCE.SO THAT'S IT.NO CHANCE TO SAY GOOD BYE.DEAD.
NO I HEAR THE MACHINES..WHOOSHH WHOOSH BEEP BEEP.WOOSH WOOSH.BEEP BEEP.
OK I WILL ATTEMPT TO TALK..THIS IS HARD..TALKING.. I CANT…OK LET ME TRY..WHAT WILL I SAY??
OK I WILL SAY CHANI I AM SO SORRY.FORGIVE ME.I LOVE YOU…..
LADY IZE GONNA AKS YOUZE TO KEEP ON TALKIN UP A STORM TO DA MAN .
ISS GOOD FOR HIS BRAINZ.
SHEEZ YOUZE DA WIFE. MAAN HEEES MESSED UP. WOW.HEH HEH
NURSE.UM KHALID DID YOU HEAR ALL THAT I SAID??
LADY EVERY LAST WORD. ‘SWAS LIKE SILVA BULLTES IN DA HEART.GO GIRL YOUZE GOTTA TELL HIM SUMPFIN. I WAS LISTENIN.YOUZE GOTTA TELL DA MAN DA TROOF IN YOUZE HEART.
OH! SHUCKS!
WHYZ DAT LADY ?HEEZ A GOOD BAD GUY IZE CAN SEE IT YEAH IZE CAN SEE IT.HEH HEH.
YOU KNOW HIM?
NAAAH! WHERE CAN A NURSE IN BELL-VOO NOW AEVRYONE.
BUT IZE SEEN A THANG OR TWO IN MA LIFE.HEH HEH..
KHALLED OR IS IT KHALEED
ISS GOOD WHATEVEAH.
WHAT DO I DO NOW?WHAT DO I DO? I HAVE A THREE QUARTER DEAD HUSBAND WHO IS “ALLEGEDLY”GUILTY OF SOME REAL BAD CRIMES
HEY LADY LISSUN,YOUZE JEWISH PEOPLES DON’T KNOW DA SYSTEM.
HEEES NOT BEEN CHARGED WIFF NUFFIN YET.
HE WAS IN DA PEN. DA COPS WHIPPED HIM. I ALSO SMACKED HIM FO’ BEEIN DISSEN YA’ ALL DEEZ TIMES.BUT DA COPS REELLY HIT HIM.YUP.DEY DID. IZE SEEN IT.
SO YOU KNOW HIM?
YOUZE GETTING OFF TOPIC LADY.
LEMME SPLAIN IT TO YOUZE.DIS GUY DID SUMPFIN WRONG OK.NOW HEEZ A LITTLE GINNY PIG FO DA COPS.SEE EVERY TIME THEY GET SOMEONE REAL WEAK LIKE YO HARRY DEY PIN ON HIM ALL KINDSA CRIMES .WHETHA HEEZ DONE IT OR NOT.ISS THE WAY DAYZ CLEAN UP THEIR FILES
LADY ISS DA “SYSTEM”.HE IS STUCK IN DA SYSTEM. KHALEED KNOW DA SYSTEM YOUZE GOT NO IDEAS HOW DA SYSTEM OPERATES.
SO YOU WERE IN JAIL?
LADY YOUZE OFF DA TOPIC AGAIN.
LISSUN LADY YOUZE GOT NO IDEAS HOW LUCKY DIS HALF DEAD HARRY IS.HE WAS CHARGED WIFF NUFFIN, YET.
HE WAS BEATEN UP IN DA HOLDING PEN.DEYZ EVEN NEVER GOT HIS FINGO PRINTS AN HIS MUG SHOT.FOR ALL PRACTICAL PURPOSES HE WAS NEVER IN JAIL.
BUT.. BUT.. HE’S HERE
FO NOW LADY. FO NOW..KHALEED GOT SOME MO TRIX IN HIS BAG.HEH HEH
KHALLEED CAN YOU GET HIM HOME?
HEH HEH FO A COUPLA GREEN BIG GREEN ONES I CAN DO ANYTHING HEH HEH.LOOKS TO ME YOU GOT A COUPLA FRANKLINS IN THE PRADA BAG HEH HEH
BUT HE IS HALF DEAD
NOT FO LONG LADY NOT FO LONG.HEH HEH.KHALEED KNOWS A COUPLA TRIX.HEH HEH.
LADY IZE GONNA AKS YOUZE SUMPFIN
GO AHAED “MR KNOWS THE SYSTEM” KHALEED
HEH HEH YOUZE MAKE ME LAFF
IZE GOTTA KNOW ONE THANG.
IF HE CHANGES HIS LIFE AROUND.LIKE ONE EIGHTY.BRAND NEW SPANKIN CLEAN OUTTA DE SHOWROOM SHINE.YOUZE GET DA PIKTCHA?
YES,KHALLEED.
WILL YOUZE BE ABLE TO LOVE HIM ,AGAIN? THINK LADY THINK.
WHY?
LADY.THINK IT OVER.I WILL STAY HERE FO A BIT…