mr. wrote on 02 Nov 2012 14:37:
Second point - If you have hasidic beliefs (or you learn kabbalah) you will be totaly spooked out by the prospect of not toiveling when needed, I know that if i need a mikva and can't get one i am OIS MENTCH
Woah....a little naive, no? Totally spooked out by 'knowing' what lack of tevilah does to a person?
The Kotzker used to say that people are careful not to eats nuts during aseres y'mei Teshuvah because "egoz" is the same genatria as "chet" (really it's off by one...nu). But why are they not careful not to do
chet?
Same here (and I am not talking about you, but about your assumption). People getting spooked out by what the sforim say about kedusha being affected by a context of kli of tum'ah? That is all just romanticism and sentimentality mixed with paranoia - just a big mishega'as in us. For if we really cared about such things
we would not get naked and masturbate ourselves to pornography. The sforim are talking all about details. The ikkar we do not stop - but the details we are free to get "all spooked out" about?
Such spooking I don't need. It's only function is to assuage my guilt at being a rosho by tricking me into thinking I really do care about spirituality - for "Look how I am carrying on and crying about death to the children, hair growing all over me, dying young, and giving more and more light of the Shechinah into the Klipos and stopping Moshiach from coming! I regret it so much!See how frum I really am! Don't judge me by when I unzip my pants and get to work - that's just an aberration."...sheesh. We all love to believe that our
intentions prove what's really important to us more than our actions do. But that is just not true.
When I live that way, I am just being a real prusteh goy dressed in ultra-Jewish clothes. Very busy not eating nuts - while I speak loshon hora...ain't nuthin' there, boys.
We have enough of those walking around. You are certainly not one of those! Like I wrote before, the addicts are the ones who cannot make it with that life. The lucky ones, maybe.
So I suggest not taking kabolah that seriously - or maybe even seeing that in truth it is irrelevant for masturbaters. We believe in nudes far, far more than we believe in the Zohar. We do.
You can't fall when your laying on the ground. That's the starting point. Now up the ladder we go!
See the Divrei Chaim I quoted in an old post years ago (parshas Vayeitzei) where he tells a story from the BSh"T about a boy who threw a rock at the king. It in the
hemshech of this idea.
