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TOPIC: Fifty years 23448 Views

Re: Fifty years 12 Jun 2018 21:21 #332118

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mzl wrote on 11 Jun 2018 20:52:
There's an old quote by Mark Twain: quitting smoking is easy, I've done it a hundred times ...

I can certainly attest to that. I quit smoking every Erev Shabbos and Erev Yom Tov!
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]

Re: Fifty years 18 Jun 2018 12:22 #332354

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Dovid824 wrote on 06 Jun 2018 16:52:
Last week I gathered up the large collection of "schmutz" that I began accumulating about fifty years ago, and bundled it into trash bags for disposal. I also deleted the schmutz on my computer.
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And this morning the last of the schmutz was picked up by the trash collection service. It took three weekly pickups, because of the quantity.

And I'm eighteen days clean.
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]

Re: Fifty years 18 Jun 2018 14:10 #332359

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Mazel tov! Welcome to real life! (18).   We daven that in the zchus of the u'bee'arta ha'ra mi'kirbecha, Hashem should help you continue successfully!
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Re: Fifty years 18 Jun 2018 14:47 #332371

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Neat.

Re: Fifty years 28 Jun 2018 15:41 #332776

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28 days clean, and a thought:

My BT path began about ten years ago. At this point, through prayer and Torah study, I think I've internalized the belief that Hashem is watching me all the time, and He wants me to observe His mitzvos. That is what's making it possible for me to stay clean.
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]

Re: Fifty years 28 Jun 2018 17:07 #332778

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That's interesting. I have found motivating thoughts from time to time but usually sharing that kind of thought also lets the air of the tires.

I also submit that cause and effect is not always easy to establish. Sometimes other factors are playing a role and they go unnoticed.

Have a great day.

Re: Fifty years 29 Jun 2018 10:26 #332804

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The question is what do you want.
When I align my will with His Will and I WANT to do what He Wants then begins a transformative reality

Re: Fifty years 29 Jun 2018 12:53 #332806

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That's really interesting. I have no idea what you mean.

Re: Fifty years 29 Jun 2018 15:16 #332812

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GrowStrong wrote on 29 Jun 2018 10:26:
The question is what do you want.
When I align my will with His Will and I WANT to do what He Wants then begins a transformative reality

I want to observe the 613 mitzvos, and I try to do so. Isn't that what He wants?
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
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Re: Fifty years 29 Jun 2018 15:50 #332814

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I see. I think we mean different things by the words want. I want p*** (and other things too!) but I know that Hashem wants me to want the 613 mitzvos. And in many cases after I have been acting out a mitzvah and learning about it I eventually do want it, because I understand why it's good. Until then I don't really want it, but sometimes I tell myself that I should want.

That's to be brutally honest.

Re: Fifty years 29 Jun 2018 18:21 #332820

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mzl: No offense meant, but this is getting off the topic of my "What Works for Me" topic.
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]

Re: Fifty years 06 Jul 2018 11:39 #333032

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36 days
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]

Re: Fifty years 06 Jul 2018 17:58 #333050

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Super! Keep it up!
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Re: Fifty years 15 Jul 2018 14:19 #333417

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I have to say that your story very much inspired me. I'm super impressed with what you did and how you plow forward onward to a better life for yourself. Its people like you that give people like me chizuk. Keep fighting! Thanks for the chizuk and for sharing your story!

Re: Fifty years 24 Jul 2018 11:19 #333814

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54 days (18 x 3).

The life crisis I'm dealing with has improved from "impossible" to "extremely difficult", thanks to Hashem. I didn't know if I would survive the last 24 hours, but I'm still here.

I absolutely need Hashem's help to get me through this. By staying clean, I hope that He will look favorably upon me and give me the support I need.

There's a relevant verse in this week's Parashah: "But you who cling to Hashem, your G-d, you are alive - all of you - today." [Devarim 4:4]
I shall not die! But I shall live and relate the deeds of G-d.
[Psalms 118:17]
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