Hi,
you know what I want. A nice filter and then what? I want to get around it, see if it really works?
Junky mind, sorry. This is : I am helpless.
And I can't do anything. This is helpless, powerless. Nothing, no filter, no strong fences, nothing, nothing will work. Addicts find away.
Unless, you want sobriety, you want and don't know how. Then there is hope.
I believe there is hope.
All the best to you.
It helps to write about yourself and your addiction, if it really is an addiction. Honestly I am really in a bad situatuion right, I want to act out, watch porn, and typed shmutz in the browser Youtube, but didn't watch porn. Yet. I mean nothing explicit, really. But it is slipping.
So this is me, Miha, the real me. No lies, no false name, nothing, just me.
I keep a journal and write in it every day. I am reading notes from last year. I can't believe it has been going on so long with this diary. And it helps.
So, admit everything to yourself, write it down. If it is painful, scary, hard, then it is even more important, that you write it down.
Let go and let God. What ever that means .... :-)
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