i always thought about that but was scared a tayva i have today will continue tommorow if i mark it down?
Thank you for sharing. If you mark it down, you admit it. Usually the tayve comes and goes. If you manage to say to the yh, to leave you for five minutes, and then he can come again, you can win. Find some activity that will disturb you, the tayves will not be able to get hold of you. Reach out, maybe you can call someone, write on the forum, read a kapitel tehilim.
I think it will help to write because the tayves do not come in an isolated space, and you can always do something (lechatchila), afterwards, if you had a fall r"l, you have to assume that it came to teach a lesson to get stronger fences. But do not beat yourself up afterwards.
Keep writing!