ineedhelp wrote on 07 Mar 2011 12:54:
I am now feeling fine without a push from my taava. in a state of emotional bliss. Hopefully to stay this way untill the end of my life, but as past experience has taught me I will probably fail (hopefully not).
OK, now for the good news:
you will fail. And the better news: it proves that your a tzadik! Sheva yipol tzadik v'com. Not to say that you MUST fall per se, but our mindset needs to be that we will fail - unless we fight really, really heard.
SECURITY BY OBSCURITY IS NISHT KEIN SECURITY AT ALL! If we dont summon every single ounce of strength to the battle, plain on failure! Have a backup plan. And a backup backup plan. And a disaster recovery plan. Practice them often.
Only you can translate these parables to real life. Lev Yodeah Meoras Nafsho, and only you can decide what will ultimately work for you. You can look around here for chizuk and ideas, and then you need to implement them.
Dude, if there was an app that can hack/circumvent these issues, it would have been up on
source forge GitHub ages ago! There is no easy way out. No. Easy. Way. Out.
Perhaps an accountability partner can help? Support groups? SA? Anonymous (no, not that one) phone conference?
Stay happy & keep on smiling. Take pride in the little steps in life. Always keep an eye out for the positive. And most important, remember that YOU CANNOT WIN! Elimoyla HKBH ozer lo, eino yachol lo - we cant possibly fight the YH without Hashems help. Dont forget to reach out and ask hashem for help. Ask Hashem during shame kolanu. Talk to him in your native language anytime you feel you need him. He is waiting to help, all you need to do is ask.
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