laagvokeles wrote on 26 May 2011 19:03:
i love it too, mainly the baroque cause its melodical, but i am ashamed to say that classical i only like also when its melodical but when it has a long piece wich is not so melodical, i have a feeling like the מחבר didnt have a clue how to full up his 10 min or more so he did one or to melodical pieces in his חיבור and the rest is just casue he has to have a 10 min long חיבור, my feeling... so again i love clasical music only when its melodical.
I actually agree with you - I don't touch very much after 1850 - and I also find Mozart overrated. But I guess all that is behind you now, so there is little point tempting you into a discussion about things you don't want in your home.
Does your objection to
goyishe music extend to Classical/Baroque?
cause my all life would be eazier, i oficially have a life of a good jew, but i aint, so where am i the most of the day? in shul. what do u do in shul? you daven, and i hate it! hate it! why do i hate it? cause im a piece of tumah, so i have no connection with hashem or with tefila (to learn i enjoy)
besides the few times in my life when i was clean it was a tremendous joy, i was from inside more happy, i was calm, i knew im doing good, all this feelings are priceless
I understand, as I'm sure many on here have felt a similar way. What do you feel is holding you back from getting back to that point?
Another question, did you feel differently about other things (life, your family, etc.) when you were in your pure state?
oh i forgat about te movies question.
i like every kind of movie besides terror and musical.
they just have to be from good companies like
universal, milenium, fox, concorde,wb,disney,(sony) i probably forgat 1 or 2
i enjoy very much the way its filmed, diffrent companies usually even if the actors acted good, i get annoyed by the way they filmd it
Can you talk to anyone about the films you enjoy? Or do you have nobody you can chat to about the things that you enjoy? Do you feel isolated from real connections with real people because you are living this double-life?