Thank you Eye and Gesher.


If you simply type your posts you will be using 10-point Verdana which is fine until you want to type in Loshon Hakodesh because Verdana does not have Hebrew and the Forum uses Times New Roman Hebrew which is too small at 10-point אבגדה.


This is 10-point Arial which was designed together with the Hebrew which complement each other אתה חכם and is easier to read.

You can see it in action and get a good reason to guard you eyes by following this link.

I just saw this on Twitter: "I want to look because that's normal. I can't because I'm not."
Grammatically correct and correctly spelled and a great vort!

The hardest time of the week for shmiras einayim is the trip to SA in a not-yet-chareidi neighborhood of Jerusalem. I got a last-minute call to buy milk for the meeting, so I had to go to the local supermarket. Ahead of me in the express checkout line was a young woman in shorts that were almost not there. Since she was wearing flat shoes, she was not really triggering, she was trying to keep cool not to trigger men. Her husband was there. I asked myself if I was jealous of him. No, I was not! I looked at her (Jewish) face. Could I see the yiras shomayim that I see in my wife's face? No. Could I see greed or histapkus bemuat? Pritzus or tznius? Frivolity or simcha? He should be jealous of me! I'll keep my wonderful, kosher, modest and beautiful wife, I don't need this piece of meat.

Blind Beggar wrote on 30 Jul 2011 21:25:


I have often pondered that as well...

Blind Beggar wrote on 30 Jul 2011 21:25:


I hear. Thanks for sharing.

It is possible that you're being a bit hard on the gal?

I mean -is she takke greedy, frivolous etc. ? (okay pritzus is pritzus).

Also, what you say that "He should be jealous of me!", IMHO -no he should not! We should all be Sameach BeChelkeinu.

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Hi BB, Vi geytz a Yid? (fyi:  "Vi" and "Yid" don't have the red squiggly underline for mis-spelled word.  "geytz", however, is squiggled.  Does anyone know how to spell "geytz"?  Actually, it's probably, "geyest" (nope, another squiggly)

"ווי גייט עס".  Ahhh.  Pretty formal, but it'll do

It was great talking to you.  You sound very strong.  And going to live SA meetings with milk and pritzus!  You are the go-to never-give-up guy on GYE, and we all learn from you.  I admire you, in case you hadn't figured that out.

אכטונג אלע אידיש רעדנדע
מיר פארשטייען אז איר געפינט דא און ענגלישע פארום מער סחורה,
עס איז אינטערסאנטער,
עס איז נישט פארשלאפן,
עס איז דא אסאך מער אקטיווע מעמבערס,
און נאך אסאך מעלות,
אבער געדענקט איר האט אסאך אידישיע ברידער וואס עס איז זיי שווער צי ליינען אדער שרייבען ענגליש,
און זיי ווילן אויך הנאה האבן פון די געוואלדיגע אויפטיען פון
GUE
מיר בעטן אייער הילף
די אידישע פארום איז נאך זייער ארעם פון אקטיווע מעמבערס, די סיבה איז פשוט, רוב מענטשן ווילן אנקומען צי א פארטיגע טיש, אזוי ווי איר וואלט אויך ענדרשט טרעפן א מנין ווי עס איז דא 10 מענטשן אן אייך, מען זאל אייך נישט באמיטשענן

אלזא בעטן מיר קומט אריבער אביסל צי אינז גיט אינז אויך די געלעגנהייט הנאה צי האבן פון
GUE
אויב עס איז אייך שווער צי טייפן אידיש, פראבירט אויס כאטשיק א פאסט א טאג,
ווי לאנג די אידישע פארום וועט אויפכאפן ביים היימישן עולם, א שיינעם דאנק פון פאראויס   

איך טאָן ניט וויסן ייִדיש בייַ אַלע. איך דרוקן אין העברעיִש זייער זייער זייערסלאָולי.
בעסטער פון גליק!
בלינד בעטלער

Back to English.
Today I am sober in SA for 140 days! This is the second time in my life that I have been clean from zera levatolo for over 96 days. Thank you everyone in GYE!


Good Shabbos,


Blind Beggar.

you are my rolemodel, my mantor!
keep it on, you give me strength

thanks for checking in rebbe BB, count me in among the people who learn from you

have a gevaldiger shabbos
zs

MAZEL TOV!

And thanks for switching back to English.

Blind Beggar wrote on 12 Aug 2011 08:23:
Quit fooling yourself. You are not sober in SA - you are sober in Hashem. Only with Hashem. If you use SA right, it brings you to into Hashem. For years, we lived as though we were 'outside Hashem', as most people do - and can get away with. Addicts cannot. If we are not in Hashem, we die.

Near the end of AA, they wrote (I paraphrase), "Each member in his personal story (printed at the end of AA) describes how he established his or her own relationship with G-d." That is how AA sees recovery - it is not about not drinking, for anyone can 'not drink' for a time. But they are saying that true Recovery boils down to one shayloh: Are you in a genuine relationship with your G-d - or are you just getting more religious? 'Religion', practically speaking, is about keeping rules. A relationship with G-d (or with another person) is definitely supported by rules - but it is not created and defined by the rules themselves.

For how many years did we say to ourselves, "well, at least I get to shul on time; learn well; really care about being mekarev other yidden; really feel deveikus during davening; know the shulchan aruch better than most people, etc. - as a nechomah for our acting out? And what's so bad about that?

Well, at some point it is no longer a nechomah. Hypocrisy eats us alive, until even the great sweetness of our drug-of-choice doesn't work so well any more, and we up the ante. Soon it starts to weigh too much...

Boruch Hashem you are finding this before too long, that you are getting recovery now. Wow!

Thank you again, Dov.


Today I am sober according to SA's definition for 143 days with 26 days on the GYE chart. This is mostly because of the fellowship of SA and all the tools of GYE, especially TaPhSiC. I am working a little on Step 3.
For many years I have being defining my level of closeness to Hashem by how frequently I have been masturbating. Now I see that there is much more to it than that. I am lusting less and being shomer my eyes more but I think I was much closer to Hashem a few years ago even when I was acting out.


Oy! Do I need a relationship with Hashem

Hi dov,you wrote in you previous post that relgion practically speaking is a set of rules.What did you mean by that?

I meant that that is how people generally use it. Not what it really is. Even frum decent people may use it that way. Not to really get a relationship with Hashem, but to please Him so that their lot will be better. Is that evil? I think not. Is it a low madreigoh? In this day and age, I think not.

But that is just not the way that addicts can successfully use religion, it seems to me. The precious thing for us about religion is that it connects us close with G-d while we are here on this goofy planet and with our goofy brains. And it is not because we are on a higher madreigo than non-addict yidden, but because we are more delicate and in greater danger than others.

Kind of like I think the Chovos haLevavos puts it. And the Zohar, too. They both say that the mitzvos are the eitzos to get a relationship with Hashem.

It is not a question of keeping halocha, but a question of focus. One can certainly be a very good Jew heeding the Chofetz Chayim's typical mussar about doing mitzvos for great schar in Olam haBa rather than being a fool and running after Olam haZeh. But for addicts, that focus completely misses the point. Addicts like me need the mishna of Antigonus ish Socho, who said "Al ti'hiu ka'avodim ham'shamshin es haRav al m'nas l'kabel p'ras - ella hevu ka'avodim ham'shamshin es haRav shelo al m'nas l'kabel p'ras, vihi morah Shomayim aleichem."

Halevai we should have some morah Shomayim, too.