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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 30 May 2011 16:03 #107389

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	Blind Beggar wrote on 30 May 2011 11:41: Today I will try not to lust after, objectify or deify any woman or girl. Tomorrow I will try not to lust after, objectify or deify any woman or girl. הה"ד והריקותי לכם ברכה עד בלי די
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 31 May 2011 02:53 #107441

1daat Current streak: 126 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 713 Karma: 4	BB, Mah Yesh? Just letting you know you still matter to me, and that you're still the most determined addict, no person, I "know". KOT
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 31 May 2011 05:21 #107459

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When I see the wife of a chosheve choosid or litvishe yungerman and she is wearing shockingly revealing, enticing and provactive clothing which go against the letter and the spirit of the laws of tznius, I have to remember that I am not the tznius police and it is her problem, not mine. Thank you Bardichev.

When a tzniusdik woman is getting on the bus in front of me and my face is inches away from the top of her skirt, then I have to remember she is not an all-powerful goddess and that I do not have to go all wobbly at the knees. Thank you Dov.

The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars.
If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look.
I can guard my eyes.
I want to guard my eyes.
I do guard my eyes.
Why do I say these four lines?

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 31 May 2011 05:25 #107460

laagvokeles	how ilustrative your descriptions gggg, wow those are hard things to win.... kol hakavod
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 01 Jun 2011 18:44 #107664

silentbattle Current streak: 1628 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3734 Karma: 15	Sounds like a good plan! For me, bards' advice is golden. She is not my problem, not my business...not my anything, really. I have other things to think about and do.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 03 Jun 2011 06:32 #107888

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FELL SHMELL

I want to thank everyone who gave me encouragement for these last 69 clean days. With your help I stayed clean as long as I had K9. The minute I had Internet access without K9 I went straight for the shmutz and was only stopped from seeing real porn by the OpenDNS filter. Boruch Hashem I did not masturbate so I am 70 days sober by SA standards.
I feel bad but I am starting my 90 days on the GYE chart from zero again NOW.

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 03 Jun 2011 11:22 #107896

shteeble OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 2024 Karma: 30	KEEP ON TRUCKING FEHL SHMEHL EAT KOOGOOL ps sounds like your streak was dependent on your filter. All those clean days puts you on a high dargeh. l'choirah a new gameplan might be one that includes fortification for times when you would even come across unfiltered internet. just a thought. keep on being the inspiration that you are.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 03 Jun 2011 16:33 #107961

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Oh, stop feeling so stinky. You are a great guy. But more than you are a great guy, you are lucky, lucky, lucky! You and I do not deserve all this 'luck'. Be geshmak - you are geshmak. Good enough for Tatty to love you and help you a bit out of your screwiness every day, don't worry. He has not brought you this far to drop you on your tuchis! :-*
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same." Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 03 Jun 2011 20:11 #107982

Rising Up Current streak: 122 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 395 Karma: 0	FELL SHMELL!!! (coming from a guy who knows a bit how it feels... You think?) Have a wonderful Shabbos!!!! (I know you're not going to see this until after Shabbos but still) Maybe I'll try and draw up some inspiration from you and work it to our benefit!!! Always your brother!!! Rising Up
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 04 Jun 2011 20:28 #107990

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Shteeble wrote on 03 Jun 2011 11:22:

KEEP ON TRUCKING
FEHL SHMEHL
EAT KOOGOOL

ps sounds like your streak was dependent on your filter. All those clean days puts you on a high dargeh. l'choirah a new gameplan might be one that includes fortification for times when you would even come across unfiltered internet. just a thought. keep on being the inspiration that you are.

All my clean streaks, 96 days and 69 days and 27 days, are dependent on my filter. What do you do when you don't have one?

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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 05 Jun 2011 03:04 #107996

ontheedgeman OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 391 Karma: 0	I thought that if I saw the ring, I would look away. But now, I know there is a ring, and I don't look away. I am curious. I look for second too long. Now what does he think? Am I looking at his wife? Would he kill me, CV?
	Recovery in 6 words: Trust H". Clean House. Help others. Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 06 Jun 2011 02:59 #108080

Dov OFFLINE Administrator Posts: 1960 Karma: 383	Well, at least if he does, your lusting troubles are over! ...not much consolation, I guess....
	"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same." Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 06 Jun 2011 15:50 #108129

ZemirosShabbos OFFLINE Platinum Boarder pass the compote Posts: 6153 Karma: 72	reb BB, according to my Bards-dictionary: staying in game = winning wishing you a great today!
	Sometimes life is like tuna with not enough mayonaise ~Inna beshem ZS Give, Forgive ~Cordnoy The reason I'm acting as if I'm pregnant, is because I'm expecting. I should be accepting. ~TZ Last Edit: by .

Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 07 Jun 2011 01:27 #108255

1daat Current streak: 126 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 713 Karma: 4	Hey BB. All the Yiddin fell, fell, fell. "Arbaim Shannah..." And He still gave us the torah! Who loves you? You must be doing some heavyweight kedusha. The yh keeps finding leaks in our defenses. And after each time he gets through, you patch it up and keep going. You are such an example to me to never ever give up. Have a great chag.
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Re: Hello from Blind Beggar 07 Jun 2011 05:20 #108277

Blind Beggar OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Not a sexaholic, just trying to be good. Posts: 780 Karma: 12	Thank you all for your good words. I now have K9 working but I found a hole in it that I cannot get it to block, so I am going to have to surrender my lust every time I get the urge to go through the hole. Wishing everyone a great Yom Tov.
	The Blind Beggar is a character in Rebbe Nachman's story of the Seven Beggars. If I view a woman as an object, I am powerless over lust, but I don't have to look. I can guard my eyes. I want to guard my eyes. I do guard my eyes. Why do I say these four lines? Last Edit: by .