Hi,
i was raised non-religious and I was always thinking, man those frum people they have it all, they are so wise, know so much, always into Torah. No joke, I still believe a frum person's life is very beautiful, cos everything has its place and its meaning.
Now you say, you the Man in Black, that you are human too. Well, I think it takes guts to say it, I think it takes guts to be honest, and I think you are making a great and good step.

All the best on your road to sanity!
Yehoshua